How to Handle Anger and Rage When Quitting Smoking

When you quit smoking, your emotions may not be as in check as they were before. Even if you are not an emotional person, the effect that cravings can have on you can turn you into that kind of person.

You may find it is harder to stay in control, keep calm and be reasonable. These are feelings that pretty much everyone going through withdrawal symptoms experiences. Thankfully, there are ways to cope with these feelings and to move past your rage and anger. Here are some of the best coping strategies on How to Handle Anger and Rage When Quitting Smoking.

Avoid the Triggers

The best treatment is prevention. This holds true for any disease, and it applies equally as well to withdrawal symptom rage. If you know what makes you angry, you can simply avoid it and avoid the anger.

This generally involves a two-part strategy. First you have to avoid the things that tick you off normally. These might be your pet peeves or certain types of conversations that put you in an angry mood. It could also be your boss at work. You may not be able to avoid your boss, but you can certainly make an effort to have a different kind of relationship with that person. Sometimes you just have to fake it and be happy even when you don’t feel like it in order to fight the rage that comes with experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

Then you have to avoid the triggers that cause your cravings. Once you start missing your cigarettes you are going to start feeling anxious, testy, and easily enraged. It won’t take much to push you over that tipping point and make you angry. To keep that from happening, you have to identify what makes your cravings appear. Is it stress? Is it going back to your old stomping grounds where you used to smoke most often?

For many people, the cravings are triggered by revisiting locations, people and memories that involved them smoking a lot in the past. If you can make an effort to steer clear of them, then you can sidestep the rage more easily. This may involve staying away from people you care about and places you love, but it may be necessary to make some changes to your life if you are going to make the big change of quitting actually last.

Deal with the Anger

You can’t always avoid the anger. There will be times where it comes out of you and you just have to deal with it. In that instance, you cannot let it control you, and you cannot try to marginalize it. Instead, focus on what is causing you that anger. Is it really a big deal and worth being angry about? Are you really angry about that trigger or is it just that you miss your cigarettes?Control Your Anger

Asking yourself these questions may help you to see how illogical and pointless your anger is. If you can dispel it, you will be able to conquer it better every time it comes up.

You can also try to think of your anger as a temporary problem. You know that emotional state will pass. So instead of venting your anger or saying something out of turn, try to keep quiet and to yourself until the feeling has passed. You are going to want a cigarette when that anger appears, to help calm you down, but you need to fight that feeling as much as you can.

One of the best ways to do that is to keep people around you who will be able to support you and who can sympathize with what you are going through. These can be family members, friends or just people who provide quit smoking help to those who need it. Make sure you have their phone numbers available on your phone and that you try to spend as much time with them as possible.

Keep in mind that these feelings of anger and irritability will be strongest within the first two weeks of withdrawal. If you can push past that time period, then you will start to have an easier time of it. Just keep telling yourself that you don’t have to fight much longer, and you will be able to achieve your goal of quitting smoking. But you are not going to be able to do that if you don’t have a plan and you don’t have a support system in place. Before you quit, make a strategy for yourself and ensure you stick to it.

281 Comments

  1. Here it is! This is what I’m anxious about…this stuff right here…yep…makin me nervous already just thinking about it. I’m irritable, I quit once before and I started again because I was just to irritable, didn’t like it, but I have to deal with it

    • Hi Jeff, you can replace your smoking habit with your favorite cup of coffee from your favorite coffee shop. This might be bit expensive early on but you will be able to deal with your irritations and cravings much better. This is a short phase, and once you are pass through it, you would not even have to depend on anything else to stay away from smoking.
      Take great care.

      • Not to speak for Nik, but I think coffee and cigarettes go hand in hand for a lot of smokers. Don’t know if that will help. I would suggest other (healthy) indulgences to reward/treat yourself while you’re battling the the withdrawal.

    • I smoked from the age of 14… I quit cold turkey on 2/25/05 and still have withdrawl issues. It gets easier,but not by much. I consider myself an addict…One day at a time!

      • Day 2 but I am determined. I really LOVE the benefits too much to turn back into a smoker. Having said that, I know I am as strong against my addiction as I am good at getting past my next craving. This early into it, I am taking it one craving at a time. Still, it’s nice to start talking in terms of days not smoked instead of hours not smoked. With each passing day, I have more vested in succeeding.

      • Please read Allen Carr’s Easy Way to Quit Smoking. I am not a smoker and he nails me and my bafflement. He is a former chain smoker and I believe he has a response for almost any situation a person trying to quit experiences — and if you still crave you are still trying to quit. Great book, easy read, inexpensive and on Amazon or his web site. I found the book for my son, daughter-in-law and step-daughter all of whom smoke cigarettes.

    • I’m 60 hours clear after hypnosis. I’m angry, I know already I’ve failed it’s just a matter of when I go out to buy some. Every dam thing is an excuse and reason to start again and yet I get absolutely nothing from it.

      • i went to the mad russian in brooklyn and have not smoked in two weeks but i am moody i hate that i get angry hope it goes away soon i don’t like this feeling !!! but the mad russian worked, quit cold turkey, never in my life have i been able to do that !!

        • Jean,

          How are you doing out there? Still none smoking I hope. I am 40 year smoker and quite after hypnosis 3 weeks ago. Very moody and angry, which is not me at all please let me know how you are doing.

          Carol

    • Dont kno where yu are with your quitting cigarettes but, you should relize that the thing you dont like (the irritability) was put in your body by the cigarettes. I jus quit yesturday and im telling you this bc im really just saying it to myself. I am so fucking mad right now. Lol an bipolar .

    • I know it’s been a while since you posted your comment but I want to say that I quit smoking cold turkey in the first week of November 2016 (I can’t even remember the day) and I have not had any cigarettes ever since. I do not want to smoke and I don’t feel the need to smoke. I want to mention that I was a chain smoker for about 7-8 years, smoking up to 30 cigarettes per day, or even 40-50 when I was out and drinking. I have mentally prepared myself for more than a year, thinking about how bad the taste is, how awful my clothes smell, how it damages my body, what are the actual processes inside my body affected by smoking…basically I was making myself aware of how bad it is to smoke, convincing myself that I will quit one day but I need to be conscious about how damaging it is to smoke. Then in October 2016 I got sick, caught a cold, continued smoking, then it got worse and I have been diagnosed with pneumonia and I had liquid trapped in one of the lungs (I’m 27 y.o.). Before going to the doctor I promised myself I would quit smoking if I were to be diagnosed with pneumonia (again, this was my second pneumonia in a year, never having it before in my whole life), and I did it. Now, I feel awesome, started going to the gym almost daily, I have a lot of energy, the taste and smell is better, my clothes don’t smell anymore, I am eating healthy and cook a lot (I have to say that you get a lot of time after quitting smoking), and basically enjoy everything EXCEPT for one thing: I became an emotional rollercoaster and my filters are almost gone. I am either depressed or euphoric, I get angry real fast, I spit fire…I feel awful about that. This is the only thing that bothers me and, unfortunately, although I don’t crave cigarettes anymore, I’m thinking about starting again because I am such an emotional rollercoaster, but then again I enjoy the other benefits…my guess would be that I have to work more on managing my emotions and that’s it. I hope every single one of you can quit smoking and keep it that way! And don’t forget, before quitting cold turkey, TRAIN YOUR BRAIN TO HATE CIGARETTES WHILE YOU’RE STILL SMOKING! THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT, TO DO IT BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY QUIT AND IT TAKES TIME! Good luck!!!

      • Chris I quit smoking black and milds in December. While everything is great I find myself very emotional my self just as you described. Im trying to figure out a way to get me back to normal. Before I quit I was not an angry like this .

      • I was glad to see that I’m not the only one who comes out of myself and then feels badly. I quit Monday, it’s Friday and I think I’m going to need bail money saved. And then I just cry. It’s my own fault for starting an addictive drug. I know I will be strong enough to not smoke and I understand how the body works going thru withdrawal. It doesnt seem to make it easier. And I don’t remember those things when I’m wildly spewing anger and rage. I remember when I’m calm and want to cry. .My goal. . Notice those situations and avoid them before they find me. . Or I’m engaged in a battle that normally wouldn’t even bother me.

        • I have not smoked for 8 weeks and I’m having anger issues. (Only in the last 5 days which is weird) I snap at everything and everyone. I even stopped drinking. I have also been eating healthy and doing a lot of excersise and feel great. It’s the anger that spoils it. Plus the fact I really want a cig, or my body does. Coming on here and reading everyones struggles has shown me I’m not alone.

          • Laura,
            Hope your still smoke free!? I am at the 8 week mark and I feel I could murder someone with my bare hands. The mood swings seem to be worse now then in the first week of not smoking. Please someone tell me this will get easier.

        • I quit smoking mid Jan, 17 – I am a blubbering idiot, more so than normal and it is driving me crazy! I don’t want to smoke, yet what i find is that emotionally i feel raw and i seem to cry at everything.

      • Its been little over a month that I haven’t had a cigarette and my emotions are all over..I cry a lot I get angry a lot I rage a lot..usually I’m like that for two weeks before my menstrual but now since I quit my emotions are horrible every day..and I don’t want to go back but I also don’t want to feel this way either..

      • I feel like going back to smoking to avoid anger and rage is a bad idea. I smoke and you are silly killing yourself and who wants that nobody loves you I’m sure. People understand what you’re going through so they take your anger with a grain of salt I’m sure just keep at it keep yourself motivated and in a good easier every day. By the way I quit smoking today so please good vibes my way

      • I don’t know if you’ll see this or not. But it really touched me. your advice about mentally training yourself first is SOOO true. I am beginning my path as we speak, thanks to you. Many blessings…

      • Maybe try weed? Medicinal marijuana does not have to be smoked and can really help with the irritability you’re experiencing.

      • I quit smoking Dec 19th of 2016 it is now May 21st 2017 and I am still smoke free! Extremely proud of myself but now the challenge is keeping my mouth shut and trying to stay positive. One day I’m happy and the next I’m just so angry which turns into profusely crying. I don’t know how to feel anymore and it doesn’t help my boyfriend is a heavy smoker same with a lot of my family and friends. I don’t have much of a release anymore that I can enjoy besides just binge eating, which doesn’t help as it should and just feeling down a lot of the time. I could relate with your post so figured I’d vent a little back. I wish I could have a cure that would keep me calm and collected as I once was but now I’m just out of control and I’m starting to damage relationships because I get so pissed I just start going off on people. I don’t think this new person I’ve become but I also didn’t want to keep killing myself and feeling a slave to smoking. Any advice?

      • It’s the breathing people! think about how you inhale when you smoke, you are delivering oxygen plus ciggy nasties to the deepest past of your lungs. It is scientifically proven that deep breathing calms you – Try deep breathing throughout the day and see if your emotions stabalise.

    • Im the same, it’s my 1st day and I am already angry and emotional. I just dunno if I can do this? Feels like my partner is just purposely pushing my buttons knowing I have no cigs..

    • I know, that is why I cracked with past attempts, A few days of the mood swings, and I feel I lost my mind, my target day is as soon as I run out, have one pack left, and am nervous just thinking about how to cope with family, job, and life in general, wish you the best of luck, more attempts you make the odds, increase in your favor.

    • I know how u feel unfortunately I can’t escape the thing that make me irriatable but it’s my kids haha but I’m struggling I’ve only gone 6 hours without and I wanna tear me hair out

  2. I need lots of prayers for school and to guide me with patience, confidence, focus, boost up my self esteem to help me remain strong. To focus and concertante in school

  3. Hey Jeff… know what you mean… sometimes just thinking about quitting has given me the jitters… I am on day 3… and found this web site helpful in understanding why yesterday and today have seemed harder to deal with cravings than day 1. I don’t know how long you quit smoking and started again due to the irritability factor… Just wondering… could you be using “irritability” as an excuse for you to continue smoking? Wonder if you accept that you will be irritable for first week at least-maybe even 2-this could help you over that hump. I’ve had two different times in my life where I quit for over a year… and as an idiot started again… mainly to feel that smoke inhalation and thinking I could control my smoking… Now I know I can’t do that ever… So, this is my hurrah attempt… and I will make it… Hope you do as well.

  4. I remember that I felt angry and anxious for like 3 weeks when I was on my way to quit smoking.. However, I think it was a bit easier for me because of e-cigarettes. I was vaping since day one and now I am a proud vaper for a few years already 🙂

  5. Why don’t you people leave smokers that use to smoke alone because it is a life choice and we choose to smoke every cigarette that we smoke leave us alone I’m sick and tired of all the stupid quit smoking commercials and also you can’t force anybody to quit it just irritates the people that are not going to quit so stop

  6. My biggest issue since trying to give up is I can try and avoid 80% of my triggers, but some are unavoidable. When I’m waiting for the bus everyday, I get ridiculously bad cravings and have given in more than once. If I try hard to not give in I can avoid relapsing but then even the smallest thing will make me angry. What can I do in situations like this where avoiding the trigger isn’t possible?

  7. I wish the anxioty was just a week or two! I go through it a lot longer & it makes me depressed & anxious. I can’t stand the feeling. I am determined to quit this time but hope the suffering stops soon. I quit several years ago for 6 years, then started again, Whew what a mistake. I’m tired of feeling like crap, spending so much money, smelling like an ashtray, etc, etc.I know I can walk to my next door neighbor’s & get a cig but then I’m just going to have to go through what I’m feeling now, again! It really sucks.
    So Jeff, did you make it? Did you go cold turkey? I’m using wellbutern generic. I could go a bit stronger as I’m quite hungry often & of course I do not want to gain. Thought maybe a blog might help. We’ll see!!!

  8. I was a smoker for 45 years.I am smoke free now 2 months on Janurary 10th 2016.I am using e-cig.best thing ever.I have try to quit to many times to count.Good luck everyone.

  9. Who wrote this article? Have they ever even been a smoker? This is wrong. First of all, there is no such thing as “preventing” anger when one is trying to stop smoking. It is inevitable. You can’t avoid it so the best way to deal with it is accept it and expect it. Of course you are going to be angry. Reading this article made me angry because it’s wrong and therefore not helpful. So the best way to deal with anger is to anticipate it. You will get angry, and no amount of avoiding people, places, things, is going to curtail that. You will get PISSED OFF! The best ways I have found to deal with it is 1) deep breathing; 2) expect the bad moods; if it was easy, everyone would do it; 3) go for a walk; 4) rant to the walls. We have been supressing our feelings for so long by smoking them down, and now they’re BACK. Having a support group online or otherwise and commiserating is extremely helpful.

    I am online looking for that support, and came across this site. The first thing that made me leery was on the front page you support e-cigarettes. Wrong. Bad. No. I wondered if this was a stealth marketing site for those e-cigarettes. The next red flag was this article. I’m moving on.

  10. I am a week and a half quit and this has always been my struggle and breaking point to starting smoking again on past quit attempts. This time I am really trying to understand if I really am angry for a good reason or if I am just creating a situation to give myself permission to smoke. Its been interesting that in most of those cases, I find the reason is yes. Hoping this part goes quickly. Doing some working out to help fuel past the anger stages. 🙂

  11. I am almost three months quit this time and I understand the anger and other emotions. My co-workers have been amazing. You just have to hang in there! I have tried to quit many times before. I have made up my mind that this will be it. I know I will be angry off and on and gain weight. I keep a running list of all the things that are getting better and it helps.

  12. Will I been somking for 15 years and on 2/3/16 I made my mind up and I quit smoking and its not been fun but this will help me so thank u

    • It’s so hard, I quit 2/16/16 and struggle to stay cigarette free, mostly it was like a companion, that’s insane, now I have to replace my time with anything. .I went cold turkey, prob not a smart way. But I push on…

      • Hang in there. Cold turkey is the best way to go and after 3 days or so you’ll have all the nicotine out of your system and you’ll be left with those horrible “triggers”. I’m a professional “quitter”, quit 2 years, 16 years, 4 years, etc. and somehow found a way back to smoking after each quit. Cold turkey works but you have to be committed to “never take another puff”. I’m 2 weeks into another quit, doing ok but I still feel it tying to pull me back. It’s a terrible addiction.
        I’m determined to stay clear of cigarettes for the rest of my life but have to take it 1 day at a time.
        Take care.

        • John, same here! I’ve only ever quit cold turkey and it’s for different amounts of time and I always am pulled back to it. It’s probably because my surroundings haven’t changed. It seems it is easier to start back up when you’ve quit multiple times because you tell yourself “I’ve done it before, I can do it again”. I’m pregnant with my third child and on day 2. It’s seeming to become harder and harder to quit these days. The withdrawals are worse than ever. It’s like once you quit, you need to develop a fear and hate of cigarettes and remember this if you ever get convinced to light up again. (I always seem to forget every reason I ever had to quit)

        • Your post really helped me to recognize that we do take it a day at a time. I am entering day 3 and my sleep habits are a bit awry..but am determined to quit PERIOD! I ask God to infuse me with His power especially when it gets rough and He does!

        • You might want to try hypnotherapy and accu- pressure or accu-puncture for the cravings. Keeping your mind and body occupied and changing your routine seems to help a lot. Good Luck!

      • I quit last Thursday cold turkey my whole body hurts every morning and off and on during the day I’m angry sad crying feeling hatred and totally lost and alone even though I have friends and relatives that are helping me out I struggle with high anxiety and depression anyway and am trying to be the best Christian I can be. I have no energy and have no want to to do anything anymore. I just want to go somewhere where no one knows me and start over

      • I quit smoking jan 2016 i have had lot of argue issues …. and i quit cold turkey sometimes i wonder if i shoukd pick them back up cause my.kids are like please smoke.. i hvanet never been like this toward my kids… please help

    • I quit 2/3, as well. I hateeee everythingggggg….but you’re my bestfriend now 🙂 . quit twinS!!! I know you are suffering as well. I dont know what it is about us humans as we really do need a misery buddy ! You are MINEEEE . YAY. Made my day that you are out there.Reading this bc today was THE HARDESTTTTT AND IM BEING WEAK MINDED!

  13. The rage is the toughest part for me. I quit smoking for a full year, and started again like an idiot. “It’s only one cigarette” mind set always leads to a relapse.
    The first go around, I was able to avoid all my triggers for the most part, and when I got that flash of uncontrollable rage, which was really often, I would grit my teeth and do pushups or another strenuous workout until it went away. That worked wonders. I can’t really do that now because of my job. I am using the nicotine lozenges, but trying to get off of those, I find my emotions going completely crazy. I feel euphoric at times, deeply depressed others, and sometimes I get an extreme burst of nearly uncontrollable rage. Most of the time I can step back a bit and rationalize the emotion. If you can look at yourself in the moment, and ask yourself is this justified or logical or is this just the withdraw; just the act of doing that will somtimes calm you down.

    • Read your post and said “that’s me!” I’m two weeks after my last cigarette and worried that I’m beginning to crave the 2mg lozenges. I limit myself to 3 per day to keep the rage at bay.
      If it weren’t for the rage I think I could muscle through, but I fear what I might do or say to someone. How do you get off the lozenges?

      • That’s the problem John. You go through exactly the same withdrawal again. When I stopped smoking in 2012 I did it cold turkey. The anger and sometimes uncontrollable rage started after 3 months. Had no problem the first 3 months. To control the anger, because I really started to hurt people with my big mouth, I started to take lozenges. Getting of of those gives me the same problem though. Completely of them now for a month and my anger is on a high. I don’t wanna go back to the lozenges because I know it won’t solve anything but I’m scaring people away and really hurt the people I love. Wish I knew how to control the anger and how long will this last.

    • Hi there, my name is Jerry…I have quit 5-6 times using everything from lozenges, Zyban, patches, and gum…I went back every time and have not quit yet…my question is I have severe anger issues when I quit and get really mad at everything…I am married and have 2 kids which of course makes life pretty rough when I have quit..do you have any suggestions on ways to control it…thanks in advance

      • Try cytisine in the form of tabex or tbx free. It helps with withdraw symptoms that could be considered too much to handle. It is not a cure all but it can help with symptoms of the smoker that really, and I mean really wants to quit. All the luck in the world to you.

      • Battling with anger issues myself! Last night I said to my husband “Im going to kick you and divorce you!” LOL Its like a temporary insanity!

  14. I am on day 7 of of quitting and I am doing it with the Nicoderm patch Step 1. My problem Is that I am depressed. this week. This morning I wanted a cigarette really bad when I woke up but It did pass. I quit because I had been very sick with Pneumonia and I wanted to never get this sickness again. It has been a rough road for the past 5 weeks and I am much better and last week I started walking everyday now I am laid up with my sciatic giving me a problem so I can not go for my walk which is upsetting me and making me very depressed so now I lay here wanting the cigarette. Help!

    • Just take a deep breath and think to ur self WHT kind of person u would lIke to be with or see and what you and them could be doing

    • It sucks. I’m on day 7 with the middle dose of the patch I think 14 mgs. I’m tired and depressed and miserable but I know if I started again I’d be even more angry. I bought a zero nicotine vapor watermelon which helps when I get really miserable. I’ve quit before and there was no reason to go back but stupidity on my part. Used weight gain as an excuse but I’m over weight anyway. I’ve been smoking 53 years on and off and I remember the day I told my dad I wanted to smoke and he said ok. He was a smoker too. Just remember there’s no easy way. Do what you want and not what people tell you. You are your own person and are responsible for your own actions so just do what you want to. Good luck.

  15. its been 40 days and im so mad all the time! and i dont feel any better. dr. says it will take time. jeezus am i suppose to lose my job in the meantime.!?

    • I agree with you whole heartedly! Ive smoked regularly for 23 yrs or so, and I am in the process of quitting. This time I feel I can actually do it but like you say, I do not feel better and I am a walking around with a full cup of anger trying not to spill it!

      • Thanks Joshua (& Linda) – exactly how I feel. 20sthing years, a pack a day & quit 5 wks ago. Am on holiday with family – how can I possibly be angry?! Felt like a spoilt brat. Really think I can do it this time ( have quit for 6 months bf but the ‘just 1’ when I was nervous killed it, so learned that lesson :)) but thought of giving up yesterday because of the anger… Thks for making me feel ‘normal’… Hope you have managed to stay strong! 😉

      • Me too! Tuesday will be 4 weeks but I don’t even like who I am! I explode on my kids and husband for the stupidest things! I hate who I am as a non smoker and that’s why I cannot quit for good! My husband quit 20 years,ago and he says he still crave’s it! NOT good! I hate the rage inside me! I started the gym but it’s not helping….

        • I feel the same exact way. It was easier in the beginning. I have become a raging maniac, I would rather smoke that act like this. How do you get past the rage, I am afraid I am going to have a heart attack, stroke or hurt someone.

        • It’s a week for me..the emotional roller coaster. Is something else..I get sooo mad at every little thing.. Today I’m so angry im crying uncontrollable.. I don’t know what to do.. I feel like I’m going to loose every one ..

      • Hey. I keep getting to day 3 and start again. How to deal with irritability and anger? My boss gets on my nerves. Don’t know how to handle. Help

  16. Today is day # 1. It’s been 9 hours. That I haven’t smoked. Growing up practically everyone around me smoked. My dad was one of the handful of people that didn’t smoke. Everyone always said don’t ever start. I have smoked since I was 8 years old. I am now 28 years old. I have four kids and a husband. He also smokes, and my mom and his mom and most of our friends and family… Today has not been bad. But in my past trying to quit was not usually hard on the first day 3rd and 5th day and so on. I wish I could just speed this process up.

  17. I’m on day 4 and had a meltdown this morning, just started crying and told my husband I didn’t think I could do it. I’m lucky that I am still healthy. I started smoking when I was 18, I am now 68. I was never a heavy smoker. When I was younger, maybe a half a pack, the last 10 years 5 a day. I tried and failed many times. I have celiac disease and my reason for never succeeding is that I suffer from severe constpation. Plus I always use the excuse that since there are so many things I can not eat, I at least had my cigarettes that I enjoyed. My grandchildren 7 and 9 do not know their nana smokes. I’m always so fearfull they will find out. On Christmas day my youngest grandson made me a Xmas card and it said, Nana I love you more than my XBox.” How much love is that, extraordinary, I felt so much love. Then I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I loved him too. So little Nicholas I said to myself I love you more than my cigarettes. So this I am going to make it. Just taking one day at a time.

    • Hi Ceil, been smoking since 16 and now 60. Got really sick and didn’t smoke for 5 weeks but have slowly relapsed and have decided to finally end the rollercoaster. My friends and family are all behind me and my husband is just fantastically supportive. Reading what you said about little Nicholas made me burst into tears….how simple….I love Dave more than cigarettes. Such a big thank you for the insight.

    • Oh dear. I’m in the same boat! I’ve been off cigs for 3 months. I also have celiac and colitis. I’m depressed, irritable, impatient. Oh…I don’t like this at all !

    • I know what you’re going through, this is my 4th day and I’ve been emotional for the last 3. I know its going to take awhile for me to get past this part of the transition but I’m determined to succeed. Good Luck to you!

    • Dido to all the post above. Mad as hell is my new saying. I hope this awful meanie goes away. I have never felt like this before. I smoked for 30 years, pack a day. It has been one month on Chantix and I don’t crave smoking. Very mad at cigarettes and the companies who make them. Shame on them. Such a horrible industry. I told myself before quitting they would quit selling them on every corner. I still think that way, because they will never sell to me. How stupid RJR and Phillip Morris is to sell something that will kill the consumer. They should pay for my chantix. I feel better after venting. Thank you for reading. I will let this anger go once I can be sure I will not desire smoking. I have spent too much money. GRRR But the end of this rocky journey has a reward… better health and money!

    • Just reading your post. Did you make it not smoking? I could relate to your story.
      I quit 39 days ago. I smoked for 40 years. I only smoked 5-7 cigs a day but got tired of them controlling my life. I never smoked in front of anyone in my family except my husband. I’m having a really hard time with the emotional addiction. I really want to get past this addiction. I just ordered some vapor cigs. No nicotine. I hope they help get me through the tough times.

      • I’m on my third week and decided to vape with no nicotine. It helps some but I am definitely not myself I smoked for 40 years

  18. I’m on day three. I can’t concentrate with anything and just want to eat all the time. I probably smoked about six to seven roll ups a day, sometimes more if alcohol was involved. Anyhow I’m going slightly nuts but confident I can hold out at least in the short term. I think the real difficulty will be when I’m out and alcohol is involved and people are smoking, but I’m trying to not even think about that.
    Even though I’ve just started I find giving myself treats and rewards helps, like doing something or eating something that I wouldn’t normally but I know I’ll enjoy. It seems to make it less a pain in the arse and gives me some further motivation. I’m doing it cold turkey, no patches or vapes. Each to their own but I just want a clean break. I do look forward to getting some concentration skills back.

  19. Hello, I am going into my second week of not smoking and I will not go back to it this time. I am determined to be smoke free one day at a time. It has been tough and I am easily angered, irritated and pissed and I am glad to hear the other stories. My body is going through withdrawal really bad. I am on Chantix and it helps my mind/brain to say, “I do not want a cigarette since it changes the receptors in the brain that chemical drop of dopa-min that says i need the nicotine. When I get through this tough time I will remember how tough it was and the body pain and emotional withdrawl. I tell everyone ahead of time I am off the cigarettes if I go off on you that is why. Also, I can’t think or form my words right either. I am half goofy. I hope this passes soon. Some of my triggers are dealing with poor customer service reps on the phone, my soon to be ex husband, financial stress. I drink plenty of water, chew gum, suckers, go work out and walk a mile or so and pray alot. God help me not to smoke today. Thank you for sharing your stories. I kno I am not alone and am this way for a reason. Do not smoke is what I am hearing no matter what.

    • On day 8 quitting and even though I’m using step one of the patch still extremely irritable. I wanted to smoke a cigarette so bad right now but then I found this website. That is so funny! I was having a hard time with that customer service reps on the phone too! I feel like I’m just so angry but once I read ithat the worst passes after two weeks it made me feel better that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I keep getting that thought oh just one cigarette won’t hurt it’s just one… But I know if I do the whole thing starts all over again and I don’t want that… I find that when it’s really difficult I have to go lay down and watch some TV to forget about it till it passes that seems to help a lot. Also when I wake up in the morning I feel so glad that I haven’t smoked in eight days

    • Hi Barbera same here chantix is great it is a mind thing. I do have a short fuse but I catch it remove myself from the situation pray and go over that situation breath and take this one day at a time I snack alot but it helps and I am constantly telling myself that I do not want the cigs which I dont THIS IS IT FOR ME I also try to stay focused on being healthier im 43 3rd time quitting and has smoked for over 20 years went to my doc the other day and she sent me for pulmonary and echo of my heart im fine just low potassium but it still scared me so this site is very helpful I think me being mindful of my anger and triggers does help im also a nurse that wants to finally practice what I preach keep up the good work everyone and if anyone wants to exchange numbers for support of each other im gain I pray that each and everyone of us continue our goal…..REMEMBER WE ARE A WORK IN PROGRESS

  20. I am on my day 7 . YAY a week I should be so happy, but I am not! every day I seem to get angrier and angrier, everything bothers me, I mean literally everything..my cat is in heat meowing and meowing and anytime I want to get her neutered she just keeps being in heat…. and then stupid things like being hungry, or doing something with my work…blocked toilet, or busted pipe, or cat falling into water bowl and put water everywhere after you got soak wet from that busted pipe outside. I feel so bad, I feel like I am so mean to everyone and everything around me, my ego tells me to start smoking again that so I wont be hurting others id rather smoke…but I don’t want to I feel so selfish..( I know this is irrational) ;/ …does anybody feels the same? it seems like everything is a trigger for me, because I just smoked to suppress my anxiety..and now all my suppressed emotions are coming up…..

    • Totally normal..I have quit and started again after 10 years..smoked for two then quit now smoked for two months and now quitting again. I get so much rage and feel horrible when i quit..sometimes out of nowhere..like I will be fixing dinner and all of a sudden laying on kitchen floor sobbing. Last time I quit my boyfriend still smoked and I found unexplained rage at him sometimes..for two years..then when I started smoking it was gone..now I’m quitting again..told him I couldn’t see him for two months..I think I become resentful that he still smokes..

    • YES Susie anything and everything is making me lose it….I’m 1 month in and I HATE the mean, angry person I have become…my family deserve better…I must figure out a way to cap it.

      • Claire (& Susie) I’m on week 5, and same for me with the anger. I’m just trying everything… exercise, smooth jazz, YouTube videos of Dr. Wayne Dyer… Lol..anything. You’re not alone. It takes constant effort, but don’t give up. We CAN do this, & we deserve it,so keep patting yourself on the back, & buy gifts for yourself with cigarette money. Eventually the rage does fade.

      • Yes, Susie & Claire.. Feel for you. Susie – sad but funny, hope you’re feeling better. Claire- exactly! – my family deserve better. Just hope it goes soon, or that I learn to channel it (sports? Breathing? Positive thinking & artificial smiling? Lol..) Good Luck! 😉

    • Oh yes I have the same emotions it is so weird to see it in your words exactly how I feel !!! I know it will be worth it in the long run just wish I didn’t love smoking so much it is hard to hate it when you still love doing it . I have green smoking for almost 30 years ! Thanks for writing your message and good luck to you and me we can so it

    • I’m just wondering when it’s supposed to get better. Haven’t smoked in 61 days. I smoked for 30 years, a pack a day and was sick maybe 3 times in 30 years. In the last 60 days, I’ve been sick with sinus infections, 4 times. I get so constipated although I drink water until I think I could swim. The Greek yogurt helps with that but I am so gassy. And it’s not funny. You really can’t be around me and my job is I deal with and am around the public. Very embarrassing! Never was a bitch before, but now everything just pisses me off. So those of you that have stayed quit, I ask. When does this get better? I do chew gum and use e-cigs to help with the cravings. I tried quiting several times before but got so depressed I didn’t want to live so decided life with cigs was better than being dead. This time I haven’t been as depressed as that but I was so much happier, less bitchy and felt better when I smoked. When does it get better?

      • Hi Ive also found that I’ve been ill so much more frequently since quitting! Maybe just coincidence! I still struggle after a year but I was pregnant and knew I had to give up, but now I’ve had the baby I’m struggling again! Resenting the fact that I can’t smoke as I really want to but don’t want to at the same time! It does get alot easier, I just notice that it’s on really stressful days that I struggle or when I’m tired. I can’t even drink or eat what I want at the moment due to health reasons which is why I think am struggling so much at the moment! I hope it gets easier for you soon!

      • I smoked about the same length you did. 25 years. I just hit days Im kind of feeling the same emotion as you were here. I had become a bit of a jerk to people, flying off the handle at the smallest of things and then later apologizing for it. I don’t explain to people ‘hey, look I’m sorry I just quit smoking,” because I don’t want to drag people into my personal life. I just say I’m sorry for being an ass. I know for 25 years of smoking I’m going to have to pay a penance before I’m free. I do miss the cigs, and that is part of the problem. After getting a rush of good health I forget why it was so important to quit in the first place, of how far down the rat hole those cancer sticks were taking me. I never had any constipation. But I read a lot if people get sick at first while their lungs clean out.

      • Mary, I know what you mean- felt this way on one of my quitting attempts. Better to smoke than to have lost all the joy of living- but it’s a trap. After that I felt I lived to smoke. Just felt I was controlled by it, always too busy smoking to listen to the kids ( :() or do anything productive… So I quit. Hope you’re hanging in there & feel better.. (I want to know when the anger subsides too..)

      • Mary you sound like me 30 years today is my first day of stopping I am 46 smoked since I was 16 quit thru three kids but I agree it makes me happier when I do and I am more nice. I am at work thinking omg I am about to leave to go home what is going to happen today to be awful. I have a 16 year old who just started driving and a daughter who just got married I am so full of just aggravated today. Does it get better has it for you since April?

    • I am totally feeling the same way.. everything is a trigger…..
      The cat, dog, kids , even the birds chirping gets on my nerves. I am having irrational thoughts. I actually feel like I understand why cutters cut themselves, or pull their hair out. crazy stuff. Dont worry I have expressed these feelings with my loved ones and don’t think I would go there. But Irrational is how I’m feeling. I’m 3 weeks in and I’m not giving up. it actually just helps reading everyone’s journey but also scary not knowing when I will be the new and improved me.

      • 🙂 birds chirping.. For me it was a child throwing a tantrum at a restaurant last night.. Sooo irritated. I’m not normally like that….

      • I totally understand when your coming from I’m only five days into this hell of quitting and both my partner and I are quitting together. I’m so scared I’m going to lose our relationship as well as the smokes. We have argued every day and we haven’t argue in two years.
        Please help me and tell me this will stop. I’m about to move out and lose the best thing that’s ever happened to me, while I’m trying to do the best thing for all of us.

    • hi sue, my name is Mary. I smoked for 40 years until I was hospitalized with empyema. I have not smoked for a month, still very angry inside. cigarettes were a friend to me. when I needed to think about life etc. I would sit down and have a smoke. I ve lost that now and I am very lonely. I live by myself and I have nothing to turn to for comfort. this is very difficult for me and apparently for you too. good luck

    • Oh yes after 2 months I’m still feeling it. I told my mum today she’s mean an controlling an crying. OOOOO lord help me. I wanna love being smokefree

  21. Thank you for writing the above article as everything seems to make a little more sense now. My story so far: I’ve smoked for just over 20 years. I’m only 36. 4 weeks & 1 day ago i had an accident where i broke 4 ribs (2 in several places front and back, yep ouch!) How i broke my ribs is another story for another forum. So i was rushed to hospital with a punctured lung as well. I was going stir crazy in the first 24hrs for a cigarette as I’ve never tried to quit. Actually i don’t really quit or give up on anything. So when the nurse told me i couldn’t leave the ward because of the machines i was hooked up on i was not only angry but also confused, i have never really been in a situation where i was not allowed to smoke. So hit the panic button and tried to remove the machines myself when luckily a beautiful understanding nurse came in and offered me a nicotine patch. (At this point i realise im about to write a novel) so long story short. I haven’t been myself for over 4 weeks now. Stuck in bed .not smoking. No sex. Angry as a mf and ready to rip heads off at the slightest wrong movement. That’s of course when I’m not balling my eyes out, staring into blank space or sleeping 10 hrs a day. . Ill let you know the outcome and best solutions when i figure it out.

  22. It has only been a few days for me. I have tried many times before, and gave myself permission to fail. This time I will keep fighting. I am going to make it. Every time I want a cigarette I think of my kids, my family and how I want to be healthy.

    When I feel the body attacks, I just ball up in a ball and lay there until it passes. Sometimes I feel emotional and want to cry and sometimes I feel like I just want someone to hug me and squeeze me until it passes.

    I know that if I trust God he will bring me through this time. I will do this.

    Blessings to everyone!

  23. Hello Tyler! It’s quite tough to quit smoking; staying smoke free is a major accomplishment. If you do this you’re rewarding yourself. I know it is not easy to quit it in one day.But I know the shared blog helps a lot in this area. Thanks for sharing this motivational blog so that other also come forward to make the society smoke free.

  24. I was forced to quit on November 23, 2015. I’m 57 and I began smoking at 15. My quit story is strange in that it sounds like it was planned by, and foisted upon me by some other force. Supreme being? God? Perhaps my deceased parents persuaded God that I was overdue for a gluteus maximus whooping. In total, I spent about two months in health care facilities. On that evening of November 23, I began to have trouble breathing. I live alone, so I had to suck it up and call 911. I don’t remember the ambulance or anything else that occurred until I woke up in a hospital two weeks later. I was told that I had quit breathing and had to be resuscitated. I had spent the first week of my coma, or “Rip Van Winkle” nap on a respirator. I never had any prior respiration or cardiac issues. During my recovery and rehabilitation in the hospital, I went through horrendous withdrawal experiences, including hallucinations and paranoia. For at least a week I actually thought a nurse was plotting to kill me. In retrospect, this was so silly and embarrassing, I feel the need to return to the hospital and apologize to the staff.
    Now that I’m home and three months tobacco free, my oxygen saturation level has been improving. Now I sleep using an oxygen concentrator and a bi-level CPAP machine. I also have a portable oxygen concentrator that I use with a nasal cannula. I know I can never smoke again, and I’m content with that. I can actually take a long flight or a train ride and not freak out.
    I was a heavy smoker and the ever increasing “cigarette tax” didn’t slow me down. The geniuses responsible for inventing and enacting cigarette tax laws left a huge gaping hole for smokers to walk through. When I was smoking I was legally paying about $10 per carton while most other smokers were paying $60 to $70 (here in Arkansas) per carton. How? Cigar and pipe smokers pay only sales tax. They are exempt from the humongous cigarette tax. Tobacco companies that sell bags of loose tobacco changed the wording on their packages from “Cigarette Tobacco” to “Pipe Tobacco”. Any idiot can figure out that the product in the bag is the cut, consistency and flavor of cigarette tobacco. Changing the label from “Cigarette” to “Pipe” cuts the price from $80 to $14. Using this loose tobacco, a $5 carton of filter tubes, and an easy to use and efficient Top-O-Matic machine, the dedicated smoker can commit suicide on the cheap. One 16oz bag of tobacco makes 2.5 to 3 cartons of cigarettes. For those of you not familiar with this loop hole, I’m not condoning this activity. I am merely revealing this so that the wunderkind of our elected officials can understand what is possible.

    • Norman,
      Reading your post not only encouraged me to try, try again (this is my 3rd attempt to quit in 6 weeks) but also brought some much needed, genuine laughter! So very happy to read of your success.
      Best,
      Stephanie in Iowa

    • Norman- Thank you for sharing your experience. I too started smoking at a young age- about 16 and am 54. I am on day 5 of no smoking and it has shown to be more of a challenge than ever before. I have quit on a few occasions- the longest about 3 weeks and I felt great then. I personally belueve all the added chemicals and stuff to put the cig out is also addictive , thus we are no only dealing with the nicotine but possibly thousands of other chemicals. No wonder we are having such a hard time. Your post about your health will be kept close to my heart for strength. I am sorry you are having to love this way now and very appreciative you shared this so others like myself are incentivised not to pick them back up. And Yes- as another poster wrote, trying to put words together can be a challenge so if this is confusing. My apologies.

      • I have been told stop smoking is harder then stopping heroine. Week three for me after 40 years. I try to remember myself before I smoked because I do not like the person I am now . They say you’ll feel better have more energy all lies!!!! All I want to do is sleep I’m depressed I’ve gained weight . This is no fun for me

        • The comment that most spoke to me: They say you’ll feel better, have more energy. All lies.
          Well, I agree but some lies are better than others. I haven’t had a cigarette in 6.5 months after 52 years of smoking, the last 20 years at least it was 2 packs a day. I don’t feel better and don’t really expect to until I have done the deed, quit, for a year. My sense of smell is better and I assume I smell better. The savings are huge as they should be when you have lost your best friend and then some. We all do it the same way. We suffer and anger and die a thousand deaths. Only we are the lucky ones. We get to live on.

  25. Im on day four….its very hard im eating so much..my head hurts but i just keep saying to myself that its all in my head..i close my eyes and think about my kids..and someday running again…its stupid to ever pick up again and then have to go threw this again…im not going to let those stupid things kill me..

  26. I’m on day 3 and I feel like I will soon bite someone’s head off. Anything and everything is a reason to get mad and scream and snap at people for nothing.
    I am known to be a kind and gentle person with opinions but always diplomatic! Honestly, these days, I’m not that kind of person at all.

    I just want to go get a cigarette so I’m back to my old kind self.

  27. I’m sitting here reading all these comments and I can honestly say ” thanks you”. I thought something was wrong with me. It has been a month since I quit and I realize I am not alone with my anger. I thought because I have smoked my whole adult life I have developed no coping skills. So there really is nothing wrong with me, I just need to learn to keep my type A personality in check

  28. I was 5 days smoke free and now I bought a pack and had one because of me being so irritated I’m on Wellbutrin and the patch and I would do good and then 4 hrs later I would have I’m going to quit again but I don’t know how to deal with these issues

  29. I’ve smoked cigarettes since I was 16, I’m 24 today, Today is day 5 with no cigarettes. I’ve decided to quit cold turkey. I have my nicorette gum just in case I feel like I’m going to snap. So far yesterday, day 4 was by far the worst withdrawal phase for me. I would say I went mad.. I felt so angry and aggravated with everything and then moments later sad and depressed. I haven’t really had any cravings for a cigarette, I don’t want one. Ciggarettes don’t taste good. They’re disgusting and smell. Everytime I come inside after smoking I’d have to wash my hand because the smell was so bad. Eventually the withdrawals will go away and I’ll be able to live a healthy smoke free life.

    • Hi Katie. I’m going threw the same thing you’re going threw mad frustrated then Sad and depressed i hate it. How do you deal with it

      • Hi Marco, just remember tomorrow is a new day, no matter how bad today is it’ll all get better and as long as you stay strong you can make it through each day without smoking. Keep busy, for instance, you can go for a walk around the block when your feeling irritable. I’ve bought life savors (hard candy) to help. Where ever I go the candy goes, that may help if you still have cravings.

        • Hi Katie. I’m on day 4 and I’ve never had this bad of depression since my
          Mother passed away. Is it normal to be this depressed? How bad was your sadness?

    • Its best to quit when you are younger and not had smoked for years. You not only have had fewer years of exposure and dependence but you just kind of become more needy of things as you get older, period. Good luck to you, do it now while you are young.

    • Hey Katie,

      When I read your story, I was amazed by details that you described about smell after smoking. It is exactly what i felt 20 yeas of my smoking, and only today is my 1st day (again) in a row of 5th weeks of every other weeks when I quit smoking. I am trying to quit smoking, and a week is the longest time that I can go through. Then I feel angry, and my quitting goes to the bottom of my dream to live a health smoke free life. But! The smoke smell is disgusting and I feel 100% confident that I will have a healthy smoke free life, and very soon!

  30. I wonder if anyone heard of this one.

    Every time I stop smoking (yes, I know, stopped and started a few time in my life) I end up sucking my thumb. First it starts in my sleep and it soon spins into my waking hours where I get this incredible compulsion to suck my thumb. When it happens I sneak off somewhere or just close the door to whatever room I may be in, sit down and go at it. Needless to say, I’m WELL beyond the age normally considered for this.

    The thing of it is that sucking my thumb acts in much the same way as smoking does, maybe even better, as I instantly feel calmed by it. Of course we all know that it’s much less socially accepted than smoking, though it really shouldn’t if you think about it.

    This has resulted in my going back to smoking though thumb sucking can be more convenient (inside for instance). Oh, and I’ve tried virtually all the other ways of stopping and, with each one, I still end up sucking my thumb.

    Any ideas?

    • tea tree therapy mint toothpicks helped me out a bunch with my oral habit. I use the ones made by tea tree therapy inc. Any whole foods store sells then in the dental isle.

  31. I quit smoking a week and a half ago some days are harder than others. I’m looking for a support group someone to talk to can anyone help

    • Hi Marco,
      I quit 6 days ago, after 15 years of smoking and several failed attempts to quit. This time I am completely confident because I was able to change my perspective. I highly recommend reading Allen Carr’s book Stop Smoking Now. It helped me realize the misconceptions I always had about smoking and quitting. I never thought I could quit without a long period of depression and frustration and anger. But I feel great! I have no cravings or desire to smoke ever again. Hope you get there too!
      -David

    • I find this site helpful along with quitnow.Com. I read about my experiences. Mood craving etc. Knowledge is power. Then I’m trying different things to help me cope. Feel free to contact me.

  32. Day 13 of quitting using patches. Today has been the worst day so far. Cravings x2 extremely intense ones that I nearly went out to buy a packet. But worse is the anger, irritability, temper tantrums and sheer rudeness I experienced today. I told my boss I didn’t want to be there and nearly called in sick. I told my work colleague she is away with the fairies and has very limited concentration span. And I am doing her work as well as mine. I told the boss he was over reacting when he said he didn’t like the way I handed him the telephone. Then on the way home a black 4 wheel drive car went through a puddle and covered my car so bad I couldn’t see anything at all and had to stop in the middle of the road. When I drove up alongside him, I hurled abuse at him?. I can not believe my behaviour today. I mean really, this is so bad for me, I so hope it improves tomorrow.

  33. I quit cold turkey 2.5 weeks ago. At about the 2 week point things really hit me. I want to cry or eat most of the time. I’m irritable and gaining weight. I started working out 3 days a week at the same time that I quit. That has helped some but I still feel like I’m at my toughest point so far. Going out in the evening or just going anywhere seems like it won’t be any fun since I can’t smoke. I know how ridiculous that sounds. How long will I continue to be irritable and depressed? Feeling like I am going to be miserable forever!

    • I hope my now you are feeling better. I went through this phase. Everything sucked because I couldn’t smoke. I wasn’t given a choice to quit, but I wanted to for a while. So somewhere in my mind I got angry I was forced to quit and doing anything sucked. I am fine now. On March 24,2016 I had a heart attack caused from a tear in my heart. I am now at almost 6 weeks without smoking, and it’s gotten so easy. I work out 3 to 5 times a week and the weight is coming back off, and I can actually go out and not hate everyone!

    • Amy are you out there….another Amy! Quit January 2nd, 2017. Was coughing “like a seal”, short of breath, on 2 inhalers and an antibiotic. Sadly, feeling a little better but mad….literally mad cuz I like smoking! It sounds ridiculous! I know. But I’m sad and depressed and don’t want to do anything because like you said…it just won’t be fun. Help!

  34. It’s the end of day 6 after 40 years of smoking I get a cravING. And I do one word search page or color one page. That usually gets me through the craving each time. Now I am getting grumpy. I am not a grumpy person by nature I am going to try some yoga /meditation starting tomorrow

  35. Oh I smoked my last cigarette last Monday night at 11pm. Cold turkey My appetite haa. Picked up. Looking to replace snacks with healthier options. However I have a roommate that has bad eating habits I’m trying to stay away from sweets and salty snacks. For the most part. I treated myself to a Mexican dinner with a good friend yesterday. Helped my mood. Didn’t snack much last night. Keeping a bottle of water handy too

  36. I’ve tried quitting smoking more times than I would like to count using various NRTs, cold turkey, hypnotherapy and have come close but never made it longer than ten days. I had my first smoke at a party in March 2012 and was at half a pack a day by December.

    A week and a half ago I got my e-cig out and began phazing out cigarettes. Almost immediately I was down to about five a day versus the thirteen I would have on average. Over the past three days I’ve cut that down to one or two a day which I’ve bummed from friends and haven’t bought a new pack for a week.

    Today was particularly hard. My partner is a heavy smoker but has been immensely helpful by not smoking when we are together in the car. I was getting anxious today because it turns out that one has to suck away at an e-cig for 20+ minutes to get the same levels of nicotine one five minute cigarette does. I was nikking out running errands and picking up supplies for our business because I couldn’t bring myself to sit in the car puffing away getting my fix while he is putting in the effort to not get his fix while we are in a confined space.

    Looking at myself sucking away at a vape for half an hour to satisfy a craving makes the addiction to nicotine look so pathetic. It’s an ugly feeling realizing just how weak cigarettes make us, I’m trying to channel that negative feeling into a charge of energy to break away from smoking altogether and reminding myself that feeling anxious/depressed/angry right now is caused by a good thing. It’s withdrawal caused by breaking away from the dependence of cigarettes. I need to keep reminding myself that I rather feel like this because I’m doing something good for myself versus feeling the same way because I’m not doing anything.

    The plan is to make the switch over to the e-cig completely over the next few days, no pressure, just when it feels right and manageable and then lowering the nicotine mg content gradually to 0mg. Ive always had this expectation that I would be a cold turkey quittee but man that’s hard! I still believe it’s one of the most successful and logical ways to quit but it makes me crazy. Reading up on all of your experiences tonight has been therapeutic so thank you all for leading the way and sharing your honest comments.

  37. Day 6 and I hate everyone; even myself. I am an angry person by nature, and for the first time in 21 years I am not smoking. I just wonder how long it will take for me not to hate everyone.

  38. I’m losing it and it’s only day 3. I knew it would be hard, but I didn’t think I would have flashbacks to times that I smoked. I didn’t think I would be clinging to every memory of smoking or thinking of all the places I could be smoking. And I didn’t think the future would keep hitting me like a bus. The idea that -I’ll never smoke again- seems so overwhelming.

    I flipped out at work today, ended up having a panic attack from all the stress, sobbing uncontrollably, and left early. I laid out in the grass for awhile and that helped, but holy shit, this sucks. It’s so incredibly hard but I keep telling myself that I don’t want to revert back to day 3. Anything but reliving this day again is better. It’s better than another cigarette.

    Wrath and pride are definitely my deadly sins and not smoking is making that abundantly clear. I’m more angry than ever and I’m too proud to show people how badly I’m hurting. I just keep reminding myself that I’m fighting an addiction and that doesn’t make me weak. We’re all better than it.

    • Hi Marie, I can totally relate. Quit 3 weeks ago and figured that the hardest part would be the first week…it was tough but jeez..I am turning into a complete bitch and wonder what the heck I ma going to do everyday and every night. Bored out of my mind plus angry.

  39. I’ve not smoked for a year now and still craving like mad. Literally could go and buy some. I know that all it will take is one and I will back on them. Can’t believe after all this time it’s still so hard. To be fair I have an addictive personality so probably wouldn’t be like this for many people but I wish I’d never started now knowing the want will always be there in my mind. I was pregnant when I gave up which was alot easier, I didn’t really think about it as I knew I had to give up but now I’ve had the baby I’m struggling a bit. Gave up twice before when pregnant with my other children but ended up smoking again not long after. But this time I’m trying my best to refrain!!

  40. I’m reading thru these posts, and realize I’m not crazy. I have smoked on and off for 35 years. Today is day 6 of quitting cold turkey. I’m not really having any cravings, but I have turned into a raging crazy person. I went off on my boss today at work, and actually made him cry. I felt so bad because even though I had a right to be angry at the situation, I didn’t have the right to go nuts. Luckily, I’ve worked with my boss for over 20 years, so I don’t think my job is in jeopardy. I am usually a very kind and considerate person, and hope to return to that person minus the cigarettes. I am proud of how well I am doing, and am going to try to control the rage in the upcoming days and weeks. Good luck to all of us. I feel so healthy not being a slave to a cigarette.

  41. I had been thinking about quitting smoking for a while. Honestly, it’s an embarrassing habit. It stinks. It makes my breath stink. I am moving soon. It’s going to be a big lifestyle change for me. I decided I wanted to start my move on the best foot forward, and I quit smoking. It’s been a lot easier than I thought. I think it may be because this time, I really meant it. I have only rarely wanted a cigarette, and it’s been 10 days. But, I almost went and smoked a minute ago. It was the closest I have come to smoking so far. I was enraged. My MIL hates me and constantly tries to piss me off. It seems to be her goal in life to piss me off. I know that seems very self-centered of me to say, but I’m really don’t think the world revolves around me. It does seem as though I am in her thoughts in a negative way, way too often. She’s like that teenage bully in high school who stays up at night thinking of rumors to make-up about you.

    Anyway, my husband tried to quit, and failed. So his cigarettes are right there, waiting for me.

    I had a dream about my MIL last night. Actually, a nightmare, of course, and in my dream I was very angry at her as well. I don’t even want to say what I did in that dream.

    It made me wonder, though. While I do really despise my MIL, I’m usually better able to handle the anger. Sure, sometimes I put her back in her place, but I usually don’t shake with anger as if I am going to physically attack her. That has happened when I smoked a few times as well, I was just wondering if maybe it’s worse since I quit. Sorry, this turned out long. I think I needed to get this off my chest in a real way instead of just my journal.

    The worst part wasn’t the rage I just had, though, it was the exhaustion, especially in the first 4 days. I could barely concentrate, I could barely keep my eyes open. It was awful, and it lasted all day. I am still more tired than I usually am, but I have been going to bed much earlier as well.

  42. I’m almost one month smoke free. Had my right hand operated on so I decided to quit while I’m off work. Omg I am going insane! I’m using patches which do help with the cravings but…
    Not usually an angry person, I find myself slipping into blinding rage over EVERYTHING.. To the point where my heart feels like it’s going to smash through my chest and I can actually here the blood pumping through my head. Is this normal? My husband is also quitting so together we’re a perfect storm. Any advice on how I can get through this without being jailed for murder would be greatly appreciated.

  43. For all those who are strugling with anger problems,the allen carr method of being a happy none smoker is probably the answer,his theory that if we mope about and think of all the reasons why we think we need to smoke are greater than why we should not then we have a problem.We have all stoped for a reason and whatever that reason is does not matter as long as we are happy.the big problem is the brain washing from lots of people including the cigarete manufacturers, they tell us how difficult it is to stop smoking and we all beilieve them,eventually we go back to smoking and go through the whole load of crap untill the next quit attempt. If we all tried to put a positive spin on quitting instead of worriyig about anger over eating, small ailments,nicotine pangs, price of the idiot sticks, alcahol triggers,concentratin problems not sleeping well. and all the other reasons we give to justify going back to the weed,and instead concentrate on being happy that we will not have to kill ourselves anymore, then we all might get somewhere lets try it it might just work.sorry about that rant but i might just have a very good point.

    • Hi , I too have smoked for many moons…started when I was 13. I am on day 4 or 5 , my approach is to not make it a big deal. I have only told 1 friend who has been great at listening and more importantly cheering me on. There are scores of things that happen to the body however most of those things start at the mind, My intention is not to do harm to anyone because I made a decision and took action to enhance my quality of life. I just want to breathe. . Be well , be nice when we feel pissed off BREATHE with more ease then yesterday. This site is great as it is not I am quitting, we are quitting. We are much stronger than I….

      May we all succeed without killing anyone.. 🙂

      Peace

  44. 60 days today. For the most part it was an easy day. I did have one rage moment where I lost my control. Feel like an idiot. I haven’t had too much peace. For me the first two weeks were the easiest. I enjoyed all the sudden health gains; my sense of taste and smell returned, my skin cleared up, deep breaths of fresh oxygen. However, after two weeks the gains plateaued and it was just me and my empty life without cigarettes. After 25 years it is not easy. I have to learn how to deal with my emotions without cigarette. You know when I was bored I smoked to kill the time, when I was done with work for the day I smoked and I relaxed, and smoked and relaxed until I fell asleep. Etc etc. I don’t need to tell anyone here what that’s like. I have two young sons who I am quitting for. I want to set a positive example. My dad smoked when I was a kid and my first memories are of the smell of cigarette smoke. I can say it was what awakened me in this world.,I don’t want to do that to my kids (my dad eventually quit and is still going into his 70s. My uncle smoked half his life, quit and now he’s 100. I know I will make it. I’m just a little tired of fighting the good fight every day. When will I reach the next plateau? And will this be the one where I can put my last life as a smoker behind me?

  45. I quit smoking cold turkey around the year 2008 after smoking for over 10 years maarlboro reds, and lights, a pack per day. I tried once, before my final qquit for about 6 months, but I DIDNT quit properly as I was keeping myself from drinking or any of those environments as I knew that would be hard, although I wasn’t even a once per month drinker. So, basically, I was still emotionally addicted, and controlled, and thus. Fearful, hence, why I relapsed. Once I realized the amount of control a stupid measly cigarette had over me, that is when I chose to not let that disgusting habit have its way with me. So I quit a second time cold turkey, and it’s been 8 years now smoke free. I did, however, try a few drags to see after about 6 years how it was, and I didn’t like it, almost made me puke, happy to say. I’ll never regret taking back control of my life… Fuck those controlling cancer sticks!!

    • Loved this! 😀 I’m on day 3, today is probably the worst. I have been staying positive though! Your post made me smile, thank you 🙂

  46. I quit smoking 45 days ago and I have remained smoke free, but I am now an angry, bitter person and I lose my temper a lot. Sometimes I don’t know if this is actually worse than being a smoker. I have not found a way to deal with this and it’s making me crazy.

  47. I have now quit for 4 years past in jan 2016 but have so many anger issues since stopping i would harm no one but can not understand i gave up and anger started and 4 yrs i am cracking up to try and find out why is this its killing my life.

  48. One of the more intolerable things I have found with quitting is how tired and more “run down” I feel without them. I have to hold out for my family sake but cigarettes have been part of my life for over two decades. I never have been able to quit and didnt really try in the past. Hopeful of success this time. This website seems to help.

  49. I am going on day 6 of being smoke free.
    Within the 2nd-3rd day I noticed a drastic change in my sense of taste and smell. The change has kept me wanting to stay the course and continue to reap the benefits of not smoking. The one thing I will say that I miss from changing my habits are the act of smoking itself not so much the smoke.
    It is an life altering adjustment of 8 years for me and I keep telling myself that with each passing day it WILL get easier and better.
    I have wanted to quit for some time now, actually tried cold turkey my 2nd year of being a smoker and lasted 2 days. The withdraw symptoms were too unbearable for me alone without any cessation aids. My 2nd time was my 6th year of being a smoker and I tried the vaping which only helped me cut back from smoking and I was doing alright for a few weeks, a pack lasted me a week after going through a pack a day. The downside to vaping is you are not breaking the habit. Your still smoking just in a different form, but the act is still there. What works best for me is the 3rd time (now) at quitting. I am using the nicotine patches and it has gotten me this far (almost 6 days smoke free). I still get the urges but its more because I miss smoking in general. The hand to mouth motion is the hardest to break. But the beauty of using the patch is you are still getting nicotine but you are not allowed to smoke on it. So the habit is being broken without the terrible withdraws from quitting cold turkey. However ,Some people can quit cold turkey and it works for them. I smoked 8 years and was pretty addicted so I personally needed another route. My suggestions in fighting the urges are to chew on a straw or gum (keep your mouth busy) to help battle the urges. The best suggestion that I think works is to stay busy!!! Walk, do things at home. When you want a smoke don’t just sit there in misery, get up and do something anything! It truly helps fight the urges and takes your mind off of wanting to smoke. The plus side to quitting is your energy level and ability to breath better goes up so doing more active things will be much easier for you. You will want to walk more and won’t feel so fatigued and tired.
    The biggest lie I told myself when I picked up smoking (socially) was that I wouldn’t let myself become addicted and it took me a couple years to admit to myself and friends and family that I was a smoker. Once you admit to yourself the addiction and seek help is when you can truly break free from the bondage that smoking has on so many people. If you are struggling to quit I hope my experience helps shed light for someone and that you can find the strength to quit. Set your quit date, if even in a month and prepare yourself to quit. Rely on family and friends for support. If you already quit stay the course and don’t give up. The days get easier as time goes on. Good luck to everyone!

    • Also to add to suggestions I have that works for me, Remove the signs associated with smoking. Ash trays, lighters ect. Put them up out of sight out mind. It does help your thought process not having your old ways stare you in the face. I kept my ashtray where I sit at home and on my side of the bed. I immediately moved them out of my sight so I am not tempted to give in. I smoked in my car also and removed traces of smoking there also. At work I sit in my car on breaks now where before I would stand out with the other smokers. It helps me keep my mind focused on my goals. Keeps me from struggling to give in. I am now parking further away in the parking lot as well so I am walking more to get into work. I like writing as well during my progress to have something to look back at and remind me of all the reasons I quit when I feel weak. My main motivator in not giving in is each day I have made it smoke free. I don’t want to start over and if and when I think I want to smoke I remind myself I have made it the # of days I have.

    • I was very glad to read your post! I’am now planning my quit date for the 4th time. I have also quit using the patch and I know it helped to calm me, although I did have my days of be irritable I was able to get past my meanness which was mostly at home with my understanding and loving husband and sister.
      This is going to be my last quit!! I’ve smoked for more that 40 years and I now find times when I don’t even like the taste! I want to feel better and breath deeper as I remember from past quits. God bless and never quit quitting!!

  50. How long will it I take for the anger and rage to subside? My husband and I quit around 10 months ago, and for me outside of the 15 pound weight gain, I have been fine.
    My husband on the other hand is a tyrant. I’m not sure if it’s anxiety, or depression.. He’s put on almost 50 pounds, still is having breathing issues and complains, argues, and goes to battle about everything! Most times being cruel to me, or our kids for no reason and about things that never bothered him. Sometimes I want to tell him to please go have a smoke and calm down…
    He is aware of his behavior and apologizes to everyone after his outbursts, but dang.. I thought these symptoms subsided after about 4 months?

  51. I am 70 years old. I am on my 34th day of no smoking. My biggest problem is generalizes anxiety disorder whch I’ve had since I was little. I think smoking made me believe that it gave me relief from the awful symptoms of GAD. Now that I don’t smoke anymore, I have to find something else to cope. I’m going herbal like lobelia. Doesn’t cure but relieves the symptoms temporarily. To sum it up – I am miserable being a non-smoker but I know that I will be more miserable if I smoke again.

  52. I started smoking at age 12 I am now 49 years old and still smoking that’s 37 years of damage to my lungs/heart I quit once before for 30 days I should of never stated smoking again.I making a pledge today to stop again. wish me lucky on my journey. This time my wish is for me only!!

  53. 26 years old started when I was 16.. pack and a half if it’s a long day… I’m going to buy an e-ciggy with no tobacco in it… & Alot of gum… (the teeth whitening kind)
    My problem is I love to smoke and drive.
    As well as what to do 5 minutes before I must walk inside that building quitting day is tomorrow. FML….

  54. After 38 years, I quit smoking 3 MONTHS ago. Thought I was doing well with it, but lately, I have been having literal temper tantrums!! Haven’t had a smoke, but want one SOOOOO bad. But on the other hand, I’m so pleased (&surprised) with how far I’ve come. Love the freedom of not worrying whether I have any smokes, have any $$ for smokes, where/when I can smoke. But I WANT ONE SOOO BAD!!! So I feel like I’m going crazy…:-P Did Google it, at least the rage is normal, but when it goes away is different for everyone. Already chewing gum, drinking water, deep breathing. Will have to try/find some other “coping” aids. Good luck, everyone working on quitting. 🙂

  55. I started smoking at age 12, now 50. I was always a chipper and could go days, weeks without a cigarette. I went though a divorce 16 years ago but still, only a few cigarettes a day or even a week. Ten years ago I remarried and my second husband is a full blown smoker. Somehow, over the past five years, I have moved up to a half a pack to a pack a day. I am so disgusted with myself!! I feel like hell!! I hide it so well, almost none of my friends know. I never smoke in my house or car. I now feel as though I am at the bottom of a well, looking up and remembering how life used to be up there. How do I stop when there are always cigarettes in the house? I have begged my husband to stop buying them but, he is unable. I have tried Accupuncture, gum, now trying this site for help. I am so embarrassed and ashamed of myself!! Any suggestions appreciated. You guys who have been able to stop RULE!!!!

  56. I’m 21, been a smoker for 2 years. quitting hasn’t been particularly hard as some others here will talk about (possibly because i haven had the habit as long). I have 2 things to add.

    1 – Among all the common issues you with find with quitting, I’ve have the worst boredom of my life. Time come to an A** grinding halt and the day doesn’t come to an end. I swear I’m still on the same day as when I quit, nothing has gone by.

    2 – you want a fool proof and hardly damaging remedy to your cravings? Try salt. On a chemical basis, salt does the same things as tobacco does to your blood pressure and the bitterness will take away any craving you can imagine.

  57. I quit smoking May 25 2016. I have noticed that I am very high strung and my anxiety level is very high as well. When will this pass or do I need to consult my Doctor.

  58. I’m 20 years old, and have been killing a pack day since I was 18, I hate it so much , I used to be in shape and had a great atheletic tolerance, but now I can’t run down the block without getting winded, I’m on my 4th day and already the anxiety and irritation are driving me insane I can’t stop jittering around, one of my coworkers asked me if I was cocked up, I don’t even do drugs!! This website is getti g me through the day and it’s comforting knowing I’m not alone, I hope can make it through and cut this habit, I hope the same for all you as well, goodluck yall, high hopes!!!!

  59. Stress tabs from Walmart help with rage somewhat. E cigarette is helping me. My husband is staying far away from me right now…I’m a week in. Day 7 really has me biting my fingernails off but my skin and lungs feel so much better! Keep it up!

  60. Oh man.. whats this,day 3 of none smoking.. woke up this morning for work. Freaked the hell ou.t . Man i was slammin doors yelling screaming. The gf of 3 yrs looked at me wrong and i tore a strip off her… like u wanted to stay home and hide out in my.room all day but nope have to make money.. cold turkey sucks.. and i mean sucks.. how long is this anger gonna last.. how long till im myself again.. because im sure as hell i dont think i can take it

  61. Ok well I have read the posts and between the health an cost of it.. I have to do this! So here goes… as of August 1 2016 I am trying again for the umpteenth time. So smoker an ex friends please help me!

  62. I am going to quite cold turkey tomorrow and found this website today to start understanding how I am going to feel and what should I do about those feeling. I have smoked for 30 years and it looks likes like the road to quoting is going to take just as long. I will just take it one day at a time.

  63. I will be going away to visit some friends next week. I do not want to smoke while I am there. Actually I want to quit and not smoke ever again. But these cigarettes sit here next to me. It seems that every time I say I am going to quit I smoke more. And if I go all evening and all morning the next day then I go and buy them and smoke more than ever. My friends husband is a doctor. They hate smoking.I know that it will be horrendous to smoke and worse to not smoke. Or maybe the other way around. Smoking has isolated me, given me a cough made me hate myself.

  64. All very depressing. I have quit 12 months now but I am so uncomfortable, anxious, angry, depressed, 2 stone heavier when does it get better. Its bloody awful!!! HELPPPPP

  65. I have been smoking for 25 years. My husband has been a smoker for years also. We both are on the nicotine patches to quit smoking. The reason we are both trying quit is because my husband found out that he has throat cancer(Stage 1). And the doctor told him that it was from smoking. I know that I never want another cigarette because its not worth getting cancer and having other problems from smoking. I am 15 days now without a cigarette. But I have been very aggravated lately. The stress from knowing my husband has cancer is getting to me. My husband is struggling to quit. He was a 2 pack a cigarettes a day smoker. Now with the patches, he smokes about 3 to 4 cigarettes a day. His treatment starts soon and he will not be able to smoke at all. God please help us get through these withdrawals and find the patience and understanding to persevere.

    • How are yall doing and how is your husband’s cancer? I am on day 3 of not smoking, but my husband smokes almost 2 packs a day. I know he will never even try to quit, but it is making it very hard for me. I got very angry today over things that don’t seem to get done. I’m very irritable. How do I do this? I apologized but it was told I meant it.

  66. Quit smoking from now let’s see who is strong after continuous smoking from eight.and try to quit it from last three year but now I decide from the combination of heart and brain to quit it Now..pray for me..

  67. I quit smoking 12 ish weeks ago – had a few relapses in the first four weeks, so 8 weeks with no smoking at all. Mostly I feel mentally and emotionally so much better than I did when I smoked – and I smoked for 45 years from when I was 13.
    But sometimes, like today. I feel so out of control emotionally – a ranting raging madwoman that can’t be stopped.
    Why is this happening? How long does it really take for the brain to readjust and can it really do that after so many years of nicotine?
    I don’t want to go back to smoking. The difference in me is mostly positive except for when I’m upset.
    The off button has disappeared!
    I used to be a pretty cool customer….
    I wish someone had the real scientific evidence of what happens to the brain when withdrawing from nicotine!

  68. I have stopped smoking on 19th August, 2016 and hope to quit forever. I have tried quitting multiple times before but relapsed due to anger issues. I have to stop this going back because its affecting my Marriage life. Hope to come back here after 1 year with the same status as of now

    • Hey we share the same quitting date. It is also my birthday. It has been 12 days for me. I used chantex to quit. It worked ok seamed to put me on an emotional roller coaster. I stopped taking chantex 2 days ago and I feel better. When we get angry we are stressed. And don’t know how to release it. so we get angry or upset. Same as frustrated, find a way to get rid of the stress. Yoga. Jog, walk, play a sport. Get a dog. Go to counseling Watching tv or movies only increases stress. You have to want to be stress free. Most of it we cause our selves

  69. I have smoked from age 28 to 57. I have to stop. I’ve quit for two years before and I’ve quit for 6 weeks earlier this year. Both times I went back to smoking due to depression and anger. Especially the anger.

    On Sunday, September 4th, 2016 I am quitting at 5:00pm after a family get together. My best friend, who is also a long time smoker is quitting at the same time. We picked a date and time. We are sticking to it.

    Smoking has robbed me of spending time with family and friends who “don’t” smoke. I’ve allowed cigarettes to replace them. One of them was my mother and now she is gone.

    I can’t even believe I am saying that, but it’s true and it makes me so angry with myself that I allowed that. But quite honestly? I like smoking, or should I say “liked”. The past year I realize how much the smoking all these years has taken its toll on my body.

    My biggest fear come Monday morning is that I will have an angry outburst over something stupid and cause problems with those closest to me. Is it anxiety that causes the angery outbursts? Why do I blow up at the drop of a hat when I am not smoking? When I’ve quit in the past, the anger sticks around for a few months or more. It’s caused problems with family and friends, ?

    What can I do to curb the anger and depression? I’m already on medication for depression and anxiety. I don’t want to fail at quitting so I need some advise.

    I plan to continue posting on this site during my withdrawals and share with all of you what I go through. I’m counting on all of you to share ideas with me and I with you, on getting through the withdrawals…

    • It is all in the mind, your anger is not related to quiting smoking, it is ur mind telling u am angry coz i disnt smoke, try going through the triggers without smoking and u will know that nothing to do with smoking, anger is an emotion react which all of us have and can be controlled if u focus on ur emotions which is generated from certain ideas (nothing to do with smoking)….i had same issue before, work out and meditation helped alot in reducing angry reactions with time u can control ur anger much easier.

  70. Have quit smoking now for 3 years and have faced all sort withdrawal systems.I can only say there is always light at end of tunnel and am out in the basking sun..Was’t easy if I were not addicted to another habbit-Nature..Indulge in sports heavily.Will help calming down on craving and keep you fresh full day.It helps to get fresh oxygen everyday when you go out exercises in natural surroundings..Not mentioning GYM here.Will again become monotonous.Be with nature and your smoking habbit will leave you..Because your lungs started loving you again..

    Else sooner your lungs will surrender one day if you go on smoking…Just 21 days required to get you out of smoke..Try out your lungs will say to you THANKYOU…Fight for 21 days with your emotions who craves for smoke.You win and will come out more stronger and better person..

  71. A smoker for 30 years. I tried to quit two times. One for 9 months and another time for about three but that was with patches and gum, which never worked. So, this time I found that book by Allen Carr. I dove in and read the 111 pages. He says you must smoke WHILE reading the book and not cut down. I didn’t do either one. It’s been 27 days and I have these waves of “silent rage,” by that, I mean, I have the feelings of rage but without the outward expressions of it. Then it seeps through or erupts in id-like emotional tantrums. I know what triggers my anger and much of it is patience related but then there’s the stress as well although it seems to be calmer and I’m handling it better. It got really ugly the first two three weeks, almost like a narcissistic rage, the addiction, self-centered fear and the self-brainwashing about how difficult it will be to quit cold turkey. It was easier than I thought. HOWEVER, to quote Jean Paul Sarte- “hell, is other people,” it’s people and life that triggers me, so, should I f*cking die?! Then comes the bloating and water retention. I’m really not gaining weight per se but retaining water. So, I drink as much as I can and pee as much as possible to clear out the toxins. I’ve had extreme fatigue, joint & muscle pain and some mild depression, off and on. I felt like the filthy car that fell apart because I was held together by the dirt. Now it just feels like a pedestrian giving me the finger on a hot day, while I drive by in an air-conditioned car. I know these metaphors are strange but this is a strange sensation when you quit in your 50’s. I relate to the majority of posts here and I’m happy I found it. I just needed to RANT!!! So let’s keep it up. It does get better and you will look better and men, you will notice a little something else getting a bit more blood supply than usual- a big plus!

    • Hi All,

      Now I am at day 18 of quitting, I smoked for 18 years and I reached to level that am feeling much older age while am at my 30s, tried many times to quit, now it is that am taking myself through all the situations I used to with smoking am doing it now without smoking and yes it is working and if it doesnt sonetimesit is not the lack of cig which made it this way after giving it a quick thought, so i feel better that all triggers are not triggers in reality they are just part of life and they pass. I dont feel that i need it now and able to control my life better, mood is much better with much less swings…it is worth to try and be patient with process u deserve it u r the most valuable to urself and deserve to enjoy ur life without the poison

  72. I am 32 & have smoked since I was 9 years old. I have quit many times in the past 2 years, for a week, a month, etc. This time I am shocked- I’ve been drunker than hell, had a huge blow up with my little brother, and spent a full day with my mother- have not even thought of smoking. I feel very confident this is it for me. I have discovered though, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DEAL WITH ANGER WOTHOUT CIGARETTES. I feel like things I’ve pushed away in the past by just smoking the stress away, are coming back to haunt me when I’m trying to sleep. I have wrote people letters telling them how I feel about something they did to me in the past, and so far everything I confront had been dealt with quite nicely. This is a daily battle, and I continue to get used to who I am without nicotine. I feel like I’ve just moved my soul into new real estate and there’s a lot of exploring to do. I hope soon I feel at home. Xo

  73. Day 4 of quitting. I have smoked for 25 yrs. Taking Chantix and I guess it is working. However, like everyone of you, I too am a walking flamethrower of Anger. I don’t mean to be and don’t want to be, but it just spews out. My wife of 20 years, and my 3 kids have to be very careful about what they say and do around me. That is the worst part…I know that it will get better, but I don’t want my family being scared of me in the interim because I have self induced anger issues. How ridiculous does that sound?
    I always say “I quit every Monday”, but after 25 years, I’ve only quit 4 times (the longest was 2 months when I was in Boot Camp and then again in Officer Candidate School). Kind of rare to see a Naval Officer smoke now days.
    I just turned 40 and looking to retire from the Navy soon and wanted to go out a better person than when I came in. I want to be able to live long enough to enjoy my retirement and perhaps have a long lasting 2nd career. I wish I could say it was a health thing, but truthfully it is a financial thing…the longer I live the longer I collect a retirement check!
    Anyway, just thought I would share. I was contemplating on grabbing a honey bun before I seen this website. That urge too has passed. Thanks

  74. I just had a hip replacement two weeks ago and the left one last year. I just felt sick was throwing up and didn’t want a cigarette. Today all I can do is cry. All day long. I know only God can help me

  75. I am wondering if anyone has any advice. The man I’m seeing has suddenly become very distant and unaffectionate. He used to message me every morning and night and say the sweetest things. He’d tell me he loved me every day but it’s been 2 weeks since he told me and the affection in his messages has slowly tapered during that time. It’s been a week and a half since he went on pills to stop smoking. Not sure what kind he’s taking. He was smoking about a pack a day when he decided to quit as he’s a single dad and has been unemployed for almost a year with no luck lately as far as job hunting goes. Anyway I’m just wondering if the symptoms of quitting smoking could cause him to be distant and pull away from me emotionally? I’ve asked him if there is anything wrong or if hes upset with me and he just keeps saying he’s fine and he’s not upset about anything but then why is he being so cold towards me? I miss him so much and just wanna support him and make him feel loved but he won’t let me close to him. It’s painful and im not trying to make this about me but I also feel like I’m losing him which is scary and hurtful and I guess I’m just confused. Ive never smoked so I don’t understand the withdrawl process so just looking for advice and support from people who have been through it. Did any of you push away your significant other the way my boyfriend is shutting me out? And if so why do you think you distanced yourself from them? He seems to still be involving everyone else from what I can tell it’s only me being shut out and just wondering why he would cut me off like this when I’m probably the person who wants to be there for him the most. Anyone have some advice? Outside perspective always seems to help! Thanks so much!!!

  76. Oh man. That is scary. I am just over 60 days into a quit. I have smoked at least a pack a day for 40 plus years and I am 55 year old female with copd and emphysema. .yes ..I am so mean and grumpy, I can’t stand myself. I have severe depression and rage. I really wanted to quit. Is this from not smoking? Anybody else feel this?

  77. I find patches very helpful, and keeping yourself busy, ive had a few experiences, when i couldn’t breath, so if I’m in a bad mood at least i can breathe, try to look at the positives instead of dwelling on the negatives, i also found hypnosis to be an instant cure.

  78. If you want to be happy about yourself and your new found freedom from the cigarette, you MUST read the EASY WAY by Allen Carr. If you want to quit, you will be able to quit, and the best part, you will be happy about quitting minus any anxiety, anger or frustration…I know it seems impossible, but if you read this book front to back (and it’s not hard) you too will be a non smoker for life…READ IT!!

  79. I am forty four years old. I quit for twelve years but in 2012 I started smoking again (don’t worry I’ve already beaten myself up about it many times). I remember the day, the location and the person who *kindly* offered me a cigarette.

    I was having problems with my then girl friend, it took a few cigarettes before I was hooked again, I tried giving up using the Allen Carr method but the magic didn’t work for a second time. I am week five in to my quit and I am still feeling incredibly angry and Carr’s book is not helping because apparently I shouldn’t be angry.

    The good news is that the physical withdrawal is over (that is never the problem, it is purely mental), I don’t crave cigarettes but I am always angry, I cannot understand what is going on; I have no desire to smoke but I am angry? Very strange.

    P.S Allen Carr wrote to me all those years ago congratulating me for escaping the nicotine trap. You can imagine my embarrassment when I started smoking again. He calls people like me ‘recaptured’ and his book The Only Way To Stop is well worth a read.

  80. I’ve been smoking for 40 years. Probably the 8th time I’ve tried. I havent smoked for 3 weeks and I’m taking wellbutrin but I’m still so angry. Mostly at my husband of 30 years. Everything he ever did wrong to me is flooding my mind. He smokes, my brand too, and it’s killing me. I think I going to have to move away to not start smoking again. I’m so disappointed in myself I don’t know what to do.

  81. Hi all, I’ve been stopped 5 weeks tomorrow and can I just say it’s been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done, I’ve been emotional and angry to the point my poor husband doesn’t know what mood I’ll wake up in 🙁 my sister has been a great help (who’s also stopped smoking) by reminding me at first that it takes 21days to stop the cycle.. didn’t believe her tbh, but what actually got me was my children, my 4 wonderful children that are so proud of their mummy for stopping smoking, reminding me every single day how proud they are of me, having my 9year old little girl saying I smell nice when she kisses me?That keeps me going that and the fact I’ve saved £400 towards a family holiday! Keep it going everyone and if you can SAVE THAT MONEY!! You’ll be surprised looking back…good luck everyone x

  82. Hello Friends,

    I smoked for 15 years, 10 /day. I quit 10 months back and in last 10 months i smoked 6 cig, meaning 6 weak moments ! It was hard and i used to lose my calm very often .
    I used chewing gums and it helped and drank water every time I lost temper, it helped too.
    Its hard to quit but worth it. I hope to stay quit.

    Good luck

  83. Hello all, i am 38 and have been smoking for 20 yrs. I quit about 1 1/2 weeks ago. I came to the decision due to frequent chest pains everytime i had a smoke. I dont miss the cigs one bit. Everytime i think of them i take a deep breath and smile because there is no pain. I wont lie, i still crave one after i eat a big meal or while drinking cold beer. The main reason i am reaching out is because i wanted to know if anyone else started having coughing fits and getting frequent headaches after quitting. Is this normal? I figured i would start hacking up all that crap that has been keeping me from breathing, but the headaches….JC, i cant get rid of them. Any thoughts?

  84. Thank god I found this article because it’s 3am and I’m wondering if I’m going crazy. It’s been three weeks and I’m dealing with rage and depression. I’m picking fights with people I love and crying at work. It has not been easy emotionally. I’m glad that it turns out I’m not the only one that feels like this after that “two week mark” every other article tries to pigeon hole us to… like we only have 2 weeks to recover and heal mentally and physically. I actually love the physical feeling of not smoking anymore but the mental stuff is really really getting to me. I even have a pretty intense work out regime of kickboxing and yoga to help stabilize the mood… I find it helps more with the physical side than the mental. Grateful I’m not crazy but hoping to look back at this in a month or so and laugh at what a psycho I’ve been. Good luck to everyone out there!

  85. I took my last drag at 8:30am on 10/11/2016 before getting three wisdom teeth removed. I put that off for years because I knew you couldn’t smoke after. I have wanted to quit for a while but I always make excuses. I made it 11 days using the patch. Even with the patch I still felt terrible it takes the edge off but I’m still getting the nicotine. Friday night I worked a midnight shift and became so anxious and jittery. My husband did something to piss me off and Saturday I went into a psychotic rage. I was screaming, crying, throwing shit like a maniac. I caved and I smoked. This addiction is no joke. I need to stop forever. I just don’t know how to hold on. Oh yea and I still feel off even though I smoked. I’m 36 and started at 15. ?

  86. If this feeling of uncontrollable rage lasts more than a few days then I surrender to the cigs. There is no way i can continue to feel like this.

  87. I have been heavily addicted to nicotine. Cigarettes have been a band aid for me to deal with life itself. And believe me I wasn’t doing everything bad I eat good exercise and do take care of myself. And also lie and say I don’t smoke cigarettes when I do smoke more by myself at night. I do have good genes and people have told me I look great. But I tell you what I don’t feel that great. I decided to have a x-ray of my lungs. It came back OK but it showing I’m not getting enough oxygen in my lungs. I am disgusted with myself I’m going on three days now and I’m going nuts. I am so depressed and angry and keep looking back on my life and all the freaking mistakes I did and get more pissed off. But I know it will get better because I do want to live without the cigarettes controlling my life. And I’m sick and tired of lying

  88. I’m on day 10 and I feel like the worst person EVER! I hate everything and everyone! My rage is absolutely insane. I feel bad for my kids and husband. I asked for him to just support me but he said he doesn’t think it does anything. My Bible study group helps lift me up….wish I could be with them all day every day! This attempt is a serious one and I’ve argued with myself a lot in these 10 days. I hope it gets better because I seriously don’t like the person I am now. Reading all your stories has helped me so much. I’m so glad I’m not the only one. It seems like it’s the same for all of us. Keep it up guys! Who wants to be a slave to paper and tobacco? We can do it!

  89. Hi! Its my 26th day without a cig after quiting cold turkey. I was a smoker for 19 years. Today I feel so stressed out that all I can think about is lighting a cigarette to help me deal with this stress. Its like if I dont do this I will loose my mind!

  90. Hi to everyone. I was smoking since 12 and continued for the following 14 years. I did try to quit but like most People I failed until one day I discovered greatest way to quit, might seem silly but I read a book ‘Allen Carr Easyway’ and I quit when I read only half of it nearly without withdrawal symptoms or anger, cravings and all other feelings I would usually expect to feel. I haven’t smoked for over half a year and seriously haven’t looked back and don’t even consider that I might smoke again. I truly suggest all who will read this comment to spare few £ and buy the book and read it. Because we all know that standard methods simply don’t work and number of people who do quit is insignificant and only labels quitting task nearly impossible like walking from Uk to China on your knees. Still to this day to my opinion dumbest way to quit is to use nicotine patches, gums etc, it’s like treating heroine addict with opiates – nonsense. So do yourselfs a favour and buy this book. If it won’t work, well it’s worth of trying and won’t cost you nothing compared to money you waste on cigarettes. Good luck everyone and hope you succeed ?

  91. I am 54 years old, in about ten days I will be 55 and I have been on and off cigarettes most of my life. This time I am exactly 3 months and 2 days off the cigarettes. One thing I can definitely tell you is the older you get, the harder it is to give up. Each time I have given up I have given up cold turkey and this has definitely been the hardest time for me.It has not been hard to actually give up but hard to just decide on the day for giving up..before it had always been I will do it after the weekend or at the start of the weekend and then I did it but this time I said to myself for 5 years..imagine..that I would give up..and have only managed to do it recently…I definitely have anger issues..I suppose we often say to ourselves.. When I give up smoking then my life will be sorted but that isn’t necessarily the case. When we give up the issues that we avoided by smoking keep coming up and until we find a way of dealing with them I suppose we stay angry. However this time I realized that the way to give up really is to not doubt your decision. By doubting you create withdrawal symptoms for yourself that don’t actually exist. By giving up and being sure you will never smoke again then you will succeed. I know this sounds like Alan Carr book but I am so happy he wrote that because I have discovered it is true. Don’t doubt..that is the key for giving up..I know for sure that I will succeed this time you lot out there..

  92. hate nicotine..hate how it has had so much control over me and my life..i hate how cigarettes smell..i hate how they made my hair and clothing and my car stink–it was always an embarrassment to be around non-smokers and feel like they loathe being around you because of the stench of cigarettes..i hated that cigarettes made me feel weak and small, incapable and undisciplined..foolish and fool-hardy..and sick..always coughing and coughing..every single morning..but i would blame it on sinus issues, any excuse i could find..i hated the fear smoking caused..like this gigantic monster looming over my head always boasting “i am out to get you and it is just a matter of time”..i hated that i would watch my hard-earned money fly out of my very own hands every single day all the while knowing that money will end up being pocketed by some horrific human beings somewhere on the face of this planet–who are making money by killing other people. sorry if that sounds harsh..just my feelings…i realize it has always been my own choice to smoke..and now it is my own choice to quit..and i have –since October 12th..and I give the whole mess over to God..and rely heavily on His grace to keep me strong day by NICOTINE-FREE day..i am reminded that i was NOT born with a dependency to nicotine..i DID exist without cigarettes for a good portion of my life..and i WAS even happy during that time.. so nicotine is a lie.. a big, fat, ugly LIE..i have always enjoyed physical exercise and bicycle riding in particular..and i want to be able to continue doing things that i love..that I LOVE more than cigarettes..people put the darn things down..put them away forever..cast them as far from your life as possible.. do whatever is necessary to distance them from you..from your life..and if enduring seasons of anger or depression or irritability occur..so be it.. find a safe outlet.. cry, pout, kick and scream..whatever needs venting..do it and then stand up..wash the tears away..take a huge deep deep breath..smile from the inside out..go buy yourself something small that you greatly enjoy..or call a friend..go for a walk in the sunshine and even take your dog..watch an old favorite movie..something grand that cradles your heart…and enjoy the freedom and joy you CAN have for as long as you desire..Determine your own reasons for quitting..write them down..read them as often as possible..even to the point of cherishing them..make them bigger than your desire to smoke..YOU CAN DO THIS..Celebrate Your Recovery!!! Let your body enjoy getting well…even if it goes through a tough process doing so..Smiles from a fellow NON SMOKER…

  93. Ok just split up with new girlfriend. She managed to irritate the hell out of me on Day two of not smoking (yesterday).

    Having reviewed the texts I probably did slightly over-react though I am not sure in a post-smoking environment I really want people around me that try to get a reaction of me. Especially people that lack the sense of self-preservation to avoid annoying me when they know I am giving up smoking.

    In a way I suppose it is cathartic. Post smoking I might be less of an emotional wreck than I am today but I will have to handle emotions and I won’t be able to be someone that just puts up with silliness.

    It is difficult to know though as I am in the middle of this thing whether I should apologise or even consider what she or I did in light of the fact that looking today at the series of escalating and ever longer rant texts (of mine) and her quite short, far less frequent, and slightly more coherant texts it seems that perhaps I did go overboard but that I was right to be annoyed. Any advice? I am currently really proud of myself for not giving in and smoking and perhaps it was between her and me smoking.

    • Hey JJ. Sorry to hear about your girlfriend, but I totally get how. Today is Day 3 for me, and I managed to scream at an immediate family member and sent some ugly texts back and forth with my mother in-law, which caused an outrage with their family. I’m usually a calm and peaceful person, so it took some thought to realize that I was acting way crazy. I’m emotionally dependent on smoking and/or altering my state of mind in any way, so it’s been a real rough so far. Our bodies are changing back chemically and we can’t do much but deal with it. What helps me with cravings and anxiety is doing something with my hands. like cooking, spring cleaning, playing instruments, video games,, etc.

      At the end of the day, I apologized to both when I realized what was happening to me.. and still awaiting responses. It makes you feel like a complete dick for being so irritable and hostile, but we just have to take it one day at a time and forgive ourselves along the way.

      I would try to apologize to her and explain why exactly quitting is internal torture. It sounds like she understands this to an extent, so it might be helpful to reiterate it. Hope everything goes fine for the both us seeking forgiveness ): Quitting turns you into a different person sometimes.

  94. I quit smoking over 7 mos ago, after being a smoker for 47 years! I don’t have craves like I did when I first quit, but I still want to smoke sometimes. I can deal with that. What I am having trouble with is that I am not an emotional person, that is until now. I’m angry, I cry alot, I’m sad, moody. But all of my emotions are exaggerated and out of control. I don’t know why and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m being bombarded with stress lately, and the issues are out of my control. I did smoke two cigarettes with my friend, at a point where I was so upset I couldn’t think straight. It did calm me down and cleared my mind. That was 3 weeks ago. Now my sister in law died yesterday. She was young, 45. All I want to do is have a cigarette! I’m tired of the stress, I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of being angry!! What can I do to get control of myself without smoking?? Does anyone know!? Help please!

  95. All this anxiety Ive read about here is EXACTLY why I want to quit! I recently went through a terrible situation with my mom who had heart surgery to save her life. Having no family nearby or any support system other than well-meaning FB friends who’d leave “thoughts & prayers” comments, I gave myself permission to smoke like a chimney because I needed something to lean on (besides food). It wasnt too long until I began to realize that smoking was actually creating much of the additional angst I was feeling because I had to dart out to the parking garage to sneak a smoke in the car (smoking is forbidden anywhere on the hospital campus, including in your own car)!! In the moment, I felt relief, but it did nothing to change the stress of the situation. It did nothing to change my moms condition. As soon as I headed back into the hospital, I could feel the anxiety starting to build but it wasnt because my mom was in surgery, it was because I had to go another hour without a cigarette! It wasnt helping anything, in fact, it was making a bad situation worse. At home. I have to bundle up and sit out on my deck in freezing temperatures so I can hurry through a smoke. Yeah… thats REAL relaxing! The more I thought about it, the more a pain in the arse it seemed to be. Back in the day, you could actually enjoy a cigarette and a drink at the bar, or a cig with your coffee in a coffee house or restaurant. Heck, I remember being in a church in Italy and seeing people smoke in the back 2 rows of church pews! Back then, it was “fun” to smoke but now, it sucks. At work, I have to go outside to smoke in all kinds of weather and only in the “designated” smoking area…right next to the trash dumpster. Passersby look at me standing out next to the dumpster in all my high-heeled finery and just shake their heads in disgust or cast me that “what a pathetic degenerate” look. I get it, I know what theyre thinking and agree with them. Admittedly,, Im as desperate as I look or I wouldnt be out there. And thats what Im sick of… being desperate. Then there was my former, very attractive, non-judgmental boss… who I adored as a friend and who I avoided like the plague because I knew he didnt smoke and I knew I reeked of nicotine stench. From my time as a non-smoker, I remember being near people who stunk of smoke and feeling like Id throw up in my mouth if they didnt get away from me, so Im very self conscious of it. I loved wearing good parfum, and have quite a nice collection, none of which I wear anymore because, why waste it? The nicotine ruins it immediately, having the same noxious effect as when someone douses the bathroom with Glade lavender scent after taking a giant no.2!! Eww!! Thus, nicotine stench and Chanel go together much like Glade and poop! They dont! Lastly, theres the lung thing which many of us dont think about unfortunately. We cant see our lungs and, if they dont hurt, we’re “ok”… for now…we think. But what we CAN see is our face! Smoking is as damaging to your skin as the sun. It ruins the ability to make collagen, breaks down the collagen we do have and, voila, premature aging! I worked with a guy who’d smoked most of his life. He looked 20 years older than he was, his face looked weatherbeaten as someone who’d been out at sea for 30 years! At age 62, he was diagnosed with lung cancer. They removed 2 of 3 lobes of his right lung to save him. He wasnt home from the hospital 2 weeks before he was smoking again! He’s luckily still cancer free after 3 years but, my God, why risk destroying what he has left!? For what? Addiction or insanity? Im not sure! But, putting all of this together, I finally realized one of the quickest ways to actually REDUCE my stress and restore my self-esteem, was to quit smoking. Counterintuitive as it may seem, its true. I feel less stressed now than when I smoked. Im still battling withdrawal fits but when they hit, I find a quiet place and run through this list of stressors and im soon finding it easier to deal with it. On days when its really bad, or im facing a high stress event, I might slap on a patch. I keep a couple in my purse, just in case (ANYTHING is better than a cigarette) but im now going through entire days without needing to do that. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. Better still, theres LIFE at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there!! Im gonna steal from Nike and L’Oreal here but.. just do it… you’re worth it!! 🙂

  96. Guys, Day 1 … or more like 23 hours after my last cigarette (18 years of smoking). I feel like im going crazy … wtf is going on ? is it withdrawal or something else going on 🙁 … I simply cant focus on anything, i feel that i forget everything (or just have the feeling idk) …

  97. I’m so glad I’m not alone! I’m an animal with cigs, But I want to quit – I hate the smell, hate hiding it, hate that it slows me down. Actually, I had quit for 2 months, then 9/11 came – I grabbed a pack like it was the last day on earth. I know two people that have quit with hypnosis – I have to find one, get coping things in place, and maybe even acuputure. I need therapy!! I feel like Bruce Banner from “The Incredible Hulk”. Sometimes I’m calm, sometimes I fly into a rage.

  98. I’ve quit smoking for several years now. I have been vaping heavily for over 2 to 3 years and I can’t stand it anymore and don’t want to. I really don’t want to vape anymore, I’m getting tired of it. I’ve lowered my nicotine intake by buying less nicotine percentages but I just puff more often so it isn’t doing much. I put my $250 vape pen in my storage to keep away from it. It went 15 whole days that was terrible. The only thing I can think about non-stop is vaping. The last week I’ve went and had a 5 min session of vaping because I was stressing out of control. I’ve managed to force myself to wait 3 days in between my sessions. But yesterday I found myself angry at everything, I’ve been slamming stuff and breaking stuff in uncontrollable rages (broke over $2,000 of my merchandise, then beat my cell phone on the ground 3 times; its dead, another couple hundred dollars). I lost my f’ing mind. I’m in all over again. I have to f’ing stop and I can’t. This is like crack cocaine.

  99. Quit smoking January 2nd 2017. 3rd year in a row of big time respiratory infection. Antibiotics, inhalers, horrendous cough. I knew I needed to quit but the more I knew I needed to the more I smoked! Crazy right. Had gone to hypnotist about 9 months ago…..did zip for me except I wanted to smoke more! I know it’s worked for many, wish it had for me. My problem though today is I AM PISSED OFF THAT I CANT SMOKE! LITERALLY ANGRY I CANT SMOKE LIKE MY FRIEND WHO HAS ZERO PROBLEMS FROM IT! PISSED THAT I HAVE NO INTEREST IN DOING ANYTHING….WHATS THE POINT…I CANT SMOKE! It’s so sad that my only enjoyment centered on this thing that made me sick, made others look at me like I was pathetic, smelled, costs lots of money etc., etc! I just stopped typing and literally my mind said….it’s not fair! Wtf! What is wrong with me. I watched my father die of emphysema/lung cancer and I still smoked for years. Thanks for letting me vent and reading others that also sound crazy to people who never smoked!

  100. Yeah, quitting sucks. Give your loved ones lots of space!!!

    Me and my girl are on day 9 and over the weekend I called her a bitch and she slapped me!!

    We are both ex-heroin/crystal meth/cocaine addicts

    she has 18 months clean and I am going on 16 months

    We both agree that quitting smoking has been harder (mentally) than quitting these gnarly street drugs.

    I can lift weights like a champ and I love being able to take deeper breaths already but we both deff get angry real quick and easily and have agreed to give each other more space.

    Best advice Ive heard is give your loved ones space (for everyone’s sake) and just ride it out

    I used heroin daily for over 15 years and I quit that, so I KNOW I CAN QUIT SMOKING

    MERICA

  101. So proud of all of you… It’s not easy but it’s well WORTH never smoking again… I’m on day 7 with nicotine replacement therapy. I’ve been wanting to fist fight 1 min and cry the next, 1 day feels like 1 week and I’m eating like a horse. I don’t care because I know this will only last for so long, then I can address any gain later. Quit rage is not who you really are! It’s a symptom that will eventually pass! Exercise when you can and reward yourself every week with the money you’ve saved as a non smoker, be happy that you will more than likely live a much longer and happier life as a non smoker and you will have plenty of time to make up for all our quit rage episodes to all our family and friends. I think it’s important to try and look at the bigger picture when we go through these nasty symptoms and remember whats caused them. Be strong! We can do this.

  102. Hi
    I use to smoke 15-20 cigarettes/day. I am on the day 10 of quitting (using patches) but I am getting so much of mood swings. Now I have a confidence to tell my self in hard time that I don’t wanna smoke but still it feels like tired n anger both no matter what I tried to do differently. It’s feels like my body got weak after I quit n I can’t even focus on my studies n work. I feel like talking to someone but all my friends smokes so they won’t listen to me because we have failed so many times in quitting so they all gave up n in my family no one will understand this situation n they don’t even know I was a smoker.
    Is there someone who can guide??

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  104. I started smoking at 11 on and off. But this time it seems really hard I try to avoid as much as possible. Now that I don’t smoke I cry for every Lil thing and all I want to do is sleep can someone please tell me if that’s normal….. by the way I stopped on Friday so it’s been 3 days now and I feel like I can’t do it…….

    • I posted this message as a reply to the first message. I hope this helps you:
      I know it’s been a while since you posted your comment but I want to say that I quit smoking cold turkey in the first week of November 2016 (I can’t even remember the day) and I have not had any cigarettes ever since. I do not want to smoke and I don’t feel the need to smoke. I want to mention that I was a chain smoker for about 7-8 years, smoking up to 30 cigarettes per day, or even 40-50 when I was out and drinking. I have mentally prepared myself for more than a year, thinking about how bad the taste is, how awful my clothes smell, how it damages my body, what are the actual processes inside my body affected by smoking…basically I was making myself aware of how bad it is to smoke, convincing myself that I will quit one day but I need to be conscious about how damaging it is to smoke. Then in October 2016 I got sick, caught a cold, continued smoking, then it got worse and I have been diagnosed with pneumonia and I had liquid trapped in one of the lungs (I’m 27 y.o.). Before going to the doctor I promised myself I would quit smoking if I were to be diagnosed with pneumonia (again, this was my second pneumonia in a year, never having it before in my whole life), and I did it. Now, I feel awesome, started going to the gym almost daily, I have a lot of energy, the taste and smell is better, my clothes don’t smell anymore, I am eating healthy and cook a lot (I have to say that you get a lot of time after quitting smoking), and basically enjoy everything EXCEPT for one thing: I became an emotional rollercoaster and my filters are almost gone. I am either depressed or euphoric, I get angry real fast, I spit fire…I feel awful about that. This is the only thing that bothers me and, unfortunately, although I don’t crave cigarettes anymore, I’m thinking about starting again because I am such an emotional rollercoaster, but then again I enjoy the other benefits…my guess would be that I have to work more on managing my emotions and that’s it. I hope every single one of you can quit smoking and keep it that way! And don’t forget, before quitting cold turkey, TRAIN YOUR BRAIN TO HATE CIGARETTES WHILE YOU’RE STILL SMOKING! THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT, TO DO IT BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY QUIT AND IT TAKES TIME! Good luck!!!

    • Hey Maria, first of all you are doing great, just hang in there. I feel the same. Previously I smoke around 30 cigs a day, but I quit cold turkey this Friday. I know it is really hard to get sleep but if we pass this there are some good things waiting for us. So just keep up the thing

  105. Some very interesting replies.
    Im into my umpteenth attempt at quitting. Ive got patches and other NRTs.
    Its easier but accept that true cold turkey better.

    So onto the anger.
    I knew this was coming as i had quit before. Had a bout yesterday.
    Something occurred to me that hadn’t before.
    For me its like PTSD. I could sense it building up but when exploding it is almost like i have no conscious knowledge it is happening to me (and everyone else).
    Its almost a out of body experience and slightly terrifying.
    Everything and everybody becomes utter irritating. The venom is terrifying. Like a different person.

    My only recompense is that i recognise this can happen and to start thinking on how to deal with this. Having a cigarette just isn’t an option for me or something i think about as a way to deal with the problem so that is good.

    But good to read everyone’s input. Good luck everybody.

  106. Hi. I am 10 weeks in on quitting cold. In the beginning I had terrible crying jags that could last for a couple of days. That’s gotten a little better, but my anger towards my family (husband, daughter and dogs!) has become a problem. It’s not a constant, but it’s ugly, mostly with my husband. My daughter irritates but I can handle it better. Same with dogs. I asked my husband for a separation last night while weeping hysterically. We’ve had issues before, but this is so over the top. Anyone out there that’s been through this??

    • Amy, I’m 33 days in and the anger is out of control. Mine is directed to my daughter and let me tell you I feel like I am this insane deranged woman. Never knew it could be this bad. Not only that I am still obsessing on smoking. I think about from the minute I wake up and it leaves me edgy and angry. I hope that you can work things out with your husband, but just wanted to let you know about the angry part. I am about to give in to it all since I find the obsession and anger just depletes me each day.

  107. I quit smoking three years ago, and then lit up a year and a half later because of stress. I tried going cold turkey this past summer, and caved on day four because I was stressed, and irritable, and cranky, and I didn’t like that. I have surgery coming up again soon, a wedding this summer, and I want to be able to save money, so I’m trying to quit again. The past three nights in a row, I’ve gone to bed with a nicotine patch on, positive that I could go smoke free. Well, every morning after not having a cigarette since before I put the patch on the night before, until around 11, 12 or 1 in the afternoon, I feel the irritability and stress, so I rip the patch of and light up to reduce the anxiety. I am an incredibly addictive personality, and just smelling one or feeling angry, or stress can trigger a craving. I’m on another medication as well as the patch to help with the cravings and irritability, but this so hard. Any advice on resisting the temptation, dealing with the irritability and stress, or resisting the behavior of ripping off the nicotine patch and lighting up? I really want to quit, but I know the anxiety and irritability will surface soon. Please help.

    • What did we do before there was a warning on Smoking? People smoked everywhere. I remember I was 19 smoking in the Grocery Stores. I had 2 kids and smoked in my room with the Baby in there. How bad is that?? Of course I wish I had never started, but it is what it is. Day 21 for me and I am smoke free. But terrible anger issues and mental fuzziness. I just got sick of smoking and the filth that goes with it. So, I said I’m Done. And hopefully with God’s help I will stay a Quitter. My House Smells Great, My Kids are Very Happy. my Doctor is over the Moon because he has tried to get me to quit for 24 years. But I am miserable, and do not feel that great. I am hurting from my addiction. I don’t feel like doing anything. My husband quit with me and he seems to be getting through this better than me. And he is older and has smoked longer than me. I just had surgery and I am recovering from that. But really that is easier than the withdrawal I am going through. Hopefully something will get better in the future. I really don’t want to feel this way years down the road. I really hope everyone who has tried to quit or has quit to be successful with it. Hardest thing I have ever done and will be hard for a long time I’m sure. I guess you just have to know how important your priorities are. and Living Smoke Free is at the top of My List.

  108. I am on day 5….omg I really just want to throat punch everyone…and I’m a nice person!! My fiance decided that we should stop smoking. Yeah I don’t really feel like I had much say in the decision…even though it is in my best interest….I wasn’t mentally prepared for it happening so quick. I used a step 2 patch for 3 days and no patch for the last 2. Honestly I don’t think it matters how you stop or when….your gonna want to choke people out and break stuff! I am trying really hard to just keep it together but the whole idea of quitting couldn’t have come at a worse time for me. I know, I know there is no “perfect” or “ideal” time to quit, but…..there are definitely kind of better times than right freaking now you know?? You know “those” people….yes you do. The ones who are almost robot happy….the sun is shining.☉..happy….its raining.⛈..happy….someone stole their puppy…HAPPY….ugh why couldn’t I have been given one of those personalities!? Then I could annoy everyone and enjoy every last freaking second of it
    And you know what he is like that in some aspects. I have been very blatant about my feelings and emotions with this whole thing…..he on the other hand just goes bout his day like nothing has changed….wth…how do people do that?!
    I cannot! Its driving me bat crap crazy, irritating me, putting me on edge about every little thing and making me a really unlikable person…which sucks, cause I’m kind of cool! When does the Ursula effect go away so I can return to a normal state of emotional well being??

  109. Most of the individuals on this message board are repeat quitters like myself. I generally like to step completely down to 1 smoke per day until no smoking but was forced to stop at 2 per day because of my husbands co-dependance. I’ve been a light smoker for some time and recently there have been some changes in my life and smoking has made this transition easier. I read through a years worth of messages and it seems to me most have not overcome the massive anger and depression….that threatens to unravel our lives. Some people continue to live on this emotional roller coaster. I am afraid the anger and rage will cause me to harm myself or ruin my marriage. Or worse the depression will win and I’ll just kill myself. It seems the quit smoking drugs only seem to repress the desire to smoke but does nothing for the anger and depression issues. So from this
    standpoint why quit? Or are there other solutions?

  110. i’m 11 days in and in the last 11 days i have had 4 companies come at me for demands of money i had no idea i owed, i got left at the airport because my mates made us late for a flight and i couldn’t afford a couple of hundred more for another one, my shower broke, my hot tap on bath seized, the toilet blocked, a rat got into my flat, my door handle snapped off in my hand, my bus to work has started getting later and later to the point they just drive past now, i work with macinery that doesn’t co-operate and all in all it’s proving insanely difficult to keep my temper in check.

  111. So…put ALL of your anger and rage to where it belongs. The fat cat multi bazillionaire heads of tobacco companies and the United States government for letting these companies get by with all the poisons and additives they put in the cigarettes. Get so mad at them for caring so little about us that they allowed these paper wrapped sticks of death into our lives. And if that wasn’t bad enough, they allowed enough additives and poisons into the tobacco that we have an ALMOST impossible time shaking it. Once you get that kind of mad, angry at those that helped create this monster, it makes it a bit easier! I promise.
    Now…to figure out how NOT to gain weight. Thoughts? Anybody?

  112. Quit cold turkey July/14/2016, nothing special about that day. I just came to the realization that there was not going to be a good day to quit. I decided to go cold turkey because I felt that I wanted to be aware of and feel the whole process of quitting right to my bones so that the memory of it would help me to keep from starting again. So far this has been successful. I had smoked for fifty years and this is my first attempt at quitting. So far so good.

  113. I am on 81 hours without a cigarette. I now have a sore throat, started loosing my voice yesterday. Weird. Sleep is not as bad as I thought. Still on antibiotics and i think it has helped me with some of the symptoms but, i knew they would all have to show eventually. The brain fog was bad yesterday, i couldn’t think of words and my attention span was almost nonexistent. I can and will do this. Today is the first day I have to actually spend the whole day out and about. I will be around my acquaintances that smoke. I still don’t want to tell anyone what I am doing. I set an alarm i n my phone for my one week mark. When it goes off then i will decide if i feel good enough to tell my family. I know they may figure it out by then, but they are good peeps and won’t say anything until I am ready. I just don’t want the looks you get when you are quitting.

  114. I am at 92 hours and I feel like hell. I think a truck decided to hit me several thousand times. My head hurts and is getting worse by the minute. My throat started hurting this morning but now it is completely raw, my nasal passages hurt and my ears are hurting along with my body. Not cool. I finally had to tell my hub that i was quitting. We were suppose to go to a b day party up the road, but after a full day being around smokers, i just couldn’t do it any more. He got upset and asked why I hadn’t told him, of course his thought was the dr had finally given me horrible news. I told him I didnt want the looks that they all give me. But while on that note. My hb doesn’t smoke, and has hugged me over the last several days and all sorts of stuff, bed time etc….he never once noticed his wife didn’t smell of disgusting smoke? I can tell he really pays attention to me. Lol. I feel so awful, wasn’t expecting this part of it. Not sure why, but wow this is nyquil knock me out, kinda feeling horrid. Thank you all for all of your stories. I don’t know anyone that has quit or wants to. So it has helped me tremendously through this

  115. I quit 25 days ago, I am the most nasty angry person right now, broke down and have cried hysterically until I have a massive headache and yes I just went and bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked one. Have I ruined it? Can I get back up in the morning and pretend that never happened? Do I need to start with day 1 again? Damn this sucks!

    • I think you can get back up and pretend it didn’t happen because you really do think it is best for your baby or you wouldn’t have quit to begin with. Maybe you feel your baby is more important than cigarettes.

  116. I need some help. My mom was forced to quit smoking (after nearly four decades) because she almost died in the hospital after a bout of bronchitis. She’s been doing so well with the lack of cravings because she has been so ill that she couldn’t even walk down the stairs. But now that she’s starting to feel better the cravings are coming. With them are an incomprehensible rage and her constantly looking for fights. She attempts to pick them with everyone in the house – screaming obsenities and all sorts of hurtful things. She’s now saying that she believes we’re plotting against her and “up to no good”. Is there a way that I or my family can help her see that we’re just being supportive and want to see her succeed. What do I do?

  117. I quit the week after my husband and we started to vape instead, the oils have no nicotine and we get compliments of how we smell everywhere we go.

    Try vaping if you feel like you need a cigarette trust me it works and you won’t feel like your smoking something bad!

  118. Wow I can’t believe my eyes, My husband whom left me for about five years came back home, begging for forgiveness, he left me and my kids for years, the painful part was that he followed my best friend, I was so broken and lost, but then my mom told me about great Baba ubeji who help people bring back loves and solve problems, I didn’t believe, I doubted until I meant with Baba ubeji, he told me not to worry that my husband will come back home begging for forgiveness I keen into it waiting for the miracle to happen yesterday morning unbelievable my husband came back home begging for forgiveness now we are both back together, my friends if you have any problems which needs to be solved please don’t hesitate just meet with great Baba ubeji and your problems will be solved I am 100%sure that your problems will be solved if you like to speak to him and meet him just email him at:greatbabaubeji@gmail.com

  119. TL:DR but for what its worth, here’s my take:

    The reason we’re smoking is to avoid dealing with the stuff that’s causing the anger in the first place. When we quit, we shed our comfort blanket and yet have not developed any way of dealing with the cause(s) of our smoking. Its a control thing. We feel like we’re constolling the situation by smoking, but of course we’re not, we’re avoiding it. So whatever was pissing you off, deal with that annd you won’t need to smoke yourself back under the fake comfort blanket of addiction.

  120. i used patches the first five days of withdraw, and it was hard, but not bad. i was getting the first 4,000 chemicals out of my body. Took them off on day 6 and it was worse than day 1 with the patches. sat my family down and explained how hard this is for me, and I asked for their understanding. when i find them being loud and obnoxious, I have to remind them.

    week 8 I relapsed. had the house to myself, my family was away, so I bought a pack and smoked them until they were gone. so, I’m on day 2 again, but it doesn’t feel as bad this time around. first few weeks I thought I’d loose my mind. been smoking 20 years. started at 17, regularly, but tried smoking since the age of 7. this is really hard, but I’m no whimp, won’t let my son down, and I’ve seen some of the folks who quit. if they quit, so can we! get as angry, sad, and pissed as you want, let’s just stay the course. good luck all.

    don’t let this monster nicotine steal from us or our families again. lets break the company. break the government’s hayuge taxes. let’s stop feeding the machine that has stolen from our generations. no wonder we’re angry. dirty rotten stinken pigs. let’s do it for the people who were never given the chance- smoking was all they knew.

  121. I am a single mother of a 5 year old who doesn’t listen and I already get angry when she gets into something she’s not supposed to because it’s expensive or wasteful. How does a smoker stop successfully when there is constant aggravation from a person your responsible for 24/7.it’s not like i have anywhere to ship her off to for a month to stop smoking.

  122. The 4th of April will make it 9 months of no tobacco use for me. This past 4th of July I put my last cigarette out and said no more. Coughing up phlegm and gagging. Being too tired all the time. Clothes smelling like cigarettes along with the car and then the mess with the butts everywhere outside. I had enough wanted my health back. Bronchitis all the time. I took my life back. I started walking right away and drinking non caffeine drinks. Slowed down on my coffee and pepsi. My true allergies became apparent and my doctor is doing accu puncture in my ears which is helping with the stress and anxiety without using meds. i have my life back and i love it.

  123. I quit yesterday the third of April 2017 after smoking for thirteen years , (two days “strong”) I hate it I am hating every second of it I hate everyone saying how proud and impressed they are , I hate how they say you can do it and most of all I hate how hateful I am right now this f@&ken sucks and I don’t know if I can do it anymore, I can see how difficult I am ,my fiancé is there for me but the small things he does sends me off the handle, and it’s not like I can do yoga and exercise and read and write to distract me because I do that anyway it’s a daily routine, I keep finding reason why not to smoke and know that it is imperative that I do as I am pregnant(surprise), however my mother smoked with both myself (born at 4.3kg 56cm) and my brother (4kg and is now 6.1) so where does that leave me ? Fuming hating every second for what a just incase something goes wrong? FML !!

  124. Mood- holy hell I’m a huge bitch i snap at everything like finance bought cable but we have amazon and nextflix like hello why do we need cable?! Everything sets me off ugh i just need to keep busy every hour otherwise i want to smoke. I was recently put on wellbutrin. 150 MG for depression/stop smoking aid. It’s been 4 days and I swear the first day my brain was like blocked when I went to do my normal routine smoke my brain was like blank I guess I was not getting the feeling I would get usually. So I smoked today and was going to buy a pack but was like what’s the point it’s not giving me the satisfaction I was getting before on medication. I do smoke on the vapor here and there. We can do this! Just keep busy as much as you can. Take care and good luck.

  125. I am raging and having suicidal thoughts…no plans ,just thoughts. Two days of rage and these thoughts. Feel like I am screwed either way . Depressed, want to sleep all the time, filled with rage, isolating myself from everyone ….or kill myself slowly by smoking cigarettes . Which is the lesser of the two evils? This is what happens every time I try to quit.

  126. 7 days! 2017April13 was my quit day and I already lost one friend of 6 months, due to bitching, but F him. This is more important. My cough is getting strangely persistent but lighter. Phlegm is a light tan color. I cannot go back to smoking now. Mom had lung cancer. I am 58.

  127. Focus on being more engaged in your daily activities.

    and try to meditate for twenty mins a day on a powerful affirmation about letting go of what no longer Serves you positively.
    It’s mind over matter, remember that…controlling yourself, rather than something controlling you.

  128. I am going to be 50 in June and I quit smoking on valentines weekend 2017. My husband smokes but I do not crave it or miss it most of the time. What bothers me is the anger that I feel. I told my husband that I have never been so angry in all my life. I just want to hit someone when they make my angry, and it seems to be everything that sets me off. I went from being a happy person to a miserable witch with a capital B. I don’t like feeling this way but I don’t want to smoke.I gave in and have made an appointment with my doctor to see what I can do about it.

  129. Smoked for 27 yrs. Gave up cold turkey 28 days ago. Have lost ability to deal with stress and sunk into deep depression. Feel better for reading how others find giving up smoking so challenging. Please keep sharing.

  130. Hey,
    My boyfriend is trying to leave cigarette. The problem is that he gets frustrated so early after leaving that. Due to a small problem he creates a big issue.
    How to deal with his anger. At some time I want to leave him because of his anger but my love always stopped me to do this.
    I also want him to leave cigarette. But how can I support him, How can I deal with his anger. Please help with suggestions. I need help !!!

  131. My fiance, we have been together 10 yrs, has suddenly decided to quit smoking. It’s a great idea but he told me to keep smoking until he gets through the worst of it. He is eating dum dum suckers to replace the cigarettes. Tonight he accused me of hiding his suckers (he ate them all) and when he was walking home from a friend’s house I was on the phone with him and the cops passed him. He accused me of calling the cops on him. My phone is broken so I can’t talk after 35 seconds but I can still hear him and he flips out cussing me out like I did it on purpose. Anything and everything I say is wrong. I try to be supportive and I’m mocking him. I don’t say anything and I am not being supportive. I just can’t win. It is incredibly frustrating and really hard when our two kids hear him flipping out on me. I get that quitting is hard. I am doing everything I can to be supportive but nothing I do is the right thing. I just try avoiding him but that is hard on everyone too. I have no idea what to do.

  132. I have smoked for 40 years. I have known for a long time that I needed to quit. I started my quit smoking campaign in October of 2016. I work in a factory where smoking inside is not allowed. We did have a smoke shed though. I decided I was going to quit smoking on my tens. I dealt with that okay. Then as weather got colder I decided to quit smoking on my lunch break. Proving I could go 8 hours without a cig. But I sure made up for it ar home later. Then I got bronchitis in early February. It was so bad one morning right after I got up I had phlegm so thick in my throat I could only cough it up to the point it cut my air off. Scary! I decided right then to quit. But I was on sick days and knew I needed to wait until Sunday night to start my patches as I would be returning to work the next day and would be busy enough to ride the cravings out.That was February 12. The patches worked pretty good. I would put them on at night after my shower. Then I got to noticing that they didn’t work as well as the day turned into late afternoon. That got me thinking, the worst of my cravings were late afternoon. I needed to put the patch on earlier so I would get the full benefit of a fresh patch when I needed it most. That worked great! That being said I have been cigarette free for 13 weeks and nicotine free for 5 of those weeks. I never had an issue with anger or rage until about a week ago. I went to the beauty shop and had my hair cut. Took a pic of how I wanted it cut too. Yea you guessed it. I felt like I had been to the chop shop. I got a little weepy with that. But shrugged it off. The a few days later I was trying to fix my hair and couldn’t get it to lay right, then came static! Instant rage! I wanted to break the brush, mirror, curling iron and anything else in my path. I had to walk away get out of the house. I never expected that! Then almost got into it with family over nothing. This is by far the hardest part of quitting. Need prayers.

  133. To Everyone who quit smoking and have not gone back, or maybe even slipped a few times? I take my HAT off to you ALL! Two thing’s that easily go hand in hand with each other is having a drink & having a ciggarette with your drink. Can’t have one without the other!
    So, I was 16 years old when both my parents whom also smoked, gave me permission to smoke at age 16 on my birthday. Then At age 26 I met my husband & he smoked 3 packs a day! I was disgusted with the ashtrays always full with butts! I may have smoked but at that time? I smoked not even 1 pack per-day! In the 6th Month of my husband now, & boy-friend then. He was watching a Pastor he always watched on TV. Pastor Arnold Murray. (This Pastor was excellent. Never took 1 single dime or ever asked for money all the years of teaching the Bible, Verse by Verse & Chapter by Chapter! We had just moved to VA. From MA. where I was originally from. This one night after watching Pastor Arnold Murray on TV? My husband quit smoking. My husband is 19 years older then I. I was in my 20’s he was in his 40’s. He never ever touched a ciggarette again. He just Prayed upon this to God & asked for this habit to be taken away from him. From that moment on? He never smoked again & here we are now 27 years later. Now for me? My husband said: “One day this will happen for you too.” Now my husband fought in the Vietnam war and made a career out of the Military for 23 years. He got his degree in Computer software engineering and then his Masters after the war was over & he was severely handicapped from that war! I was a drinker of wine at that time. One day years later in September 2002. I just got done watching the Pastor on TV and I went flying into the bathroom downstairs to light up a ciggerette. Has the ciggarette was lit, I looked at it and said to myself: “What am I doing? I just watched a wonerful Sermon and now I couldn’t wait for it to finish so I could lite up my ciggarette? At that very moment? I asked God to take away the alcohol & the smoking both bad habit’s at the same time. I was sick of feeling: “Sick & Tired” all the time. I’ll never forget the year and Month because, I was having a Birthday the next Month in October. My husband and I were married one year prior to my quitting both bad habit’s in 2001 March we were married. So when he quit in 1990. It took me another 12 years till I quit both drinking and smoking. I remember of being scared to go shopping the next day & see the isle in the supermarket where all the wines would be. However, That’s when I learned when God take’s something bad away from you? He’s not a half-way God! He take’s all cravings & desires and withdrawals & all else that goes with the teritory away! I never ever had one craving for any alcohol still to this year in 2017. But, in year 2007 my husband is & still is: “A General Contractor of his own Company he started in 1991. He never advertised and till this very day he has over a 5,000 customer data base. We have sub-contractors who have stayed with us working for my husband very loyal for over 18 years now. Story is: My husband starting in spring of 2007 was going out every single day with his nice clothing on and when I did his laundry? He wanted his whites under his clothes? To be extremely white. So from spring -winter time 2007 he would leave the house many times per-week and told me? They were for estimate jobs. When he did estimates? He always wore his nicer clothes then back into his construction clothing when on a job. I said to myself: “There’s no way he’s doing estimates like this everyday just about this entire year!” So, naturally I started to believe he was cheating on me! At that time? I myself went to the gym everyday to work-out since I quit the smoking. So 5 years straight I became and athlete. I was never more fit in my life. I worked out 7 day’s per-week at least 3 hours a day. Great stress reliever. Come that Fall 2007 I started to get angry & hurt about my husband still leaving and dress nice. I started to buy a pack of ciggs every weekend I would buy 1 pack and have 1 cigg & it tasted horrible and I would get dizzy so, I through the entire pack away. This went on for about almost 2 Months. Then this one time when I bought the pack of ciggs.? It stuck with me & I got hooked again. Very, Very bad thing I did. My husband found out naturally cause he could smell it on me. He brought me up to Bethesda Navel Hospital. Then introduced me to 4 Oncologist who have been treating my husband that entire year for cancer! My head was spinning out of control. I was so angry with him but, at the same time so sorry for him! If he would have told me to begin with? Till this day? I still would be a non-smoker. The last thing I’d want to do is start smoking when my husband has cancer! NEVER! All his Oncologist even were mad at my husband for not ever telling me the truth. My husband’s excuse for not telling me was to protect me because I was diag. in 2003 with another illness that had no cure. So, he thought this would add a lot of stress to me with my illness. But, he was wrong! He added ton’s more stress by not being truthful to me to begin with and I would never ever bought ciggs and got hooked again!. Here I was I told him thinking he’s cheating on me all that time! Now 10 years later? I’m still smoking. Every single time I say I’m going to quit and I got down to 6 ciggs left in my pack? I’d get this overwhelming feeling of anxiouness that made me go out and buy another 3 packs. That kept going on and on. So finally I decided I’m going to try the Vapor e-ciggs. I Googled for the best there was online. I told my husband about this yesterday May 15, 2017. He said he heard something about them not being good for you. I told him I’m going to taper off to quit with them. The Military doctor’s aren’t allowed to prescribe: ” CHANTIX.” I asked many times. For some reason this time I found I was much weaker then I was in 2002. I needed help. The Military tells those who want to quit? To go to group sessions once per-week and be with other’s who want to quit. Yeah, I can see myself there now and after the sessions is over we all go outside and lite up a cigg. That’s not going to work! Today I was going to order online the: Vapor Cigg” I saw online yesterday has the number one vapor cigg on the internet. Today I get email saying they are going to be banning the vapor e-ciggs! Figures! Just when I made my mind up on what I was going to do today. I should just go back into believing in what I did the first time and keep my Faith strong and Pray for my slipping up so badly. My husband to this day? Is still a very personal private person. He won’t let his 2 grown son’s know of his health or any sister’s or his brother’s. I keep telling him: “You need to change your way’s on thinking that way! My lungs were crystal clear by 2007! I could run miles without huffing. And a HUGH plus being with illness and it helped my deep depression when I quit everything. I lost my love of my career has a Chef with my own business. I lost so much! But, there is life after being diag. with anything. You have to find out what it is that you love once again in a different way. I’am however happy to say my husbands “Cancer” has been in remission since the end of 2007. He goes for test twice per-year and he’s doing excellent! God Bless You All who struggle and who have done a great job in quitting and to all those wonderful supporter’s!

  134. I smoke cigars. Have been since about 1968. Don’t inhale, not going to stop. Increasing the Smoking of cigars has helped me lose 52 pounds and now very healthy according to doctors. Its a choice. Makes me feel better, relaxing. Curbs violent thoughts, very calming. Not for everyone. Best feeling in the world, working hard on the farm and puffing on the cigar. Never smoked a cigarette, don’t like the idea of smoke being filtered by a chemical filter. Good luck to everyone and have a nice life.

  135. I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you very much for this post and the thread! It is very nice to know that I am not alone is this feeling of rage and irritation that has lead me to relapse in the past just to avoid it. I am trying to quit once more because i am 27 years old and realized that I have let smoking cigs become a crutch for my emotional problems, and i will never get anywhere unless face the problems inside of smoking them. The best advice i have gotten so far was exactly what this article said. Embrace and Accept how your feeling, know a lot of it is temporary, and face the demons 1 by 1.

  136. Heading into my 3rd day with no cigs. I am so angry! I’ve read about avoiding anger triggers, try to keep quiet instead of lashing out, realize this will pass, etc. … the rationale I am expected to have is 100% lacking. I’ll be lucky to still have a job when I get through this, if I get through this, I WILL get through this!!! Good luck everyone, damn this is so not easy.

  137. I had to quit smoking for surgery. And on day #4. My husband is testing me, something severe,!! I can visually see myself beating the shit out of him!! Not to mention he downgrades me.. I have had 5 surgeries in 2 months and trying to stop smoking to better my health is Soo TESTING MY LIMITS!! I crave the nicotine.. I can get patches, but he drinks in front of me and dips… Anyway. To help push through this is worse than anything!! He taunts me. I am on the brinks of beating this man if he doesn’t stop!!

    • Correction** I can not get patches.. I am unable to work and he doesn’t allow me to go do anything without approval.. I feel the demon demanding nicotine!!

  138. I quit smoking a few weeks ago,
    I was ready for it and motivated, went through all the motions.
    I can handle most of it, I just don’t feel like myself though.

    Not depressed, I just used to be this energetic person and now I’m pretty dull. Not making jokes or being over excited about everything.

    Basically waiting for ME to come back.

    Probably just because I cut out a big piece of who I was with quitting.

  139. I wish there was only smokes here. Snus is more of a hell to quit. Sure it’s less damaging. No need to inhale. Low risk of cancer if any but it’s still not good. Higer amounts of nicotine. More time for exposure. I get lazy physical by snus. It’s inversely rated to how much I tend to work out. Thinking of that, the one of few relief from withdrawal is movement, excersise of any kind. Something activating the endgoneous opioid-system.Also there’s smoking Aids. Nicotine antagonists. I dont know what happens when one quit taking them as I got allergic to Zyban (bupropion/wellbutrin) but It was effective. Replacement seems to suck, it just ends up with me taking more and more..

  140. It’s almost I’ll do what I i’ve done before to quit snus. Start smoking instead for a while. for some reason 2 cig a day was enough to compensate for constantly having that in my mouth almost day in, day out.

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